tantalizing sultry      



Tuesday, November 29, 2005

sweet and simple.
indeed baby,
indeed. (:
-easily smitten-ed (:

well,
according to NOEL,
(the movie),

miracles are closer than you think. (:


well they certainly are (:

11:28:00 PM


sleep is yelling out to me.
since nine plus. omg.

-off i go

3:40:00 AM


















and isn't he thee most heartthrob?
well, that's what we all thought.

surprisingly,
he's a regular guest appearance on onetreehill.
never realised, only up till today :o

2:17:00 AM



















prime was like the sweeeetest.
(am simply a suckerr for sweet saccharine treacly movies)

but the ending was bad.
how bout i just didn't like the way things ended between them.

worst thing is,
there were soo many scenes,
and incidences,
that were like, soo similar?
it kinda felt like a message sent to me. ?

but i believe otherwise.
okay, how bout hoping.

2:09:00 AM


everyone is

rhapsodizing·
and caught up in the hype·

okay,
human nature.

1:19:00 AM


Monday, November 28, 2005

why do i keep ruining it time and time again.
UGH.

i wanna fix this.
but i don't know how.


because if the world is spinning and i'm still living
it won't be right if were not in it together

12:46:00 AM


and it has been three,
days.

12:00:00 AM


Sunday, November 27, 2005

ugh i've been binging.
my diet has gone a lil haywire.
needa loose those pounds badly.

11:57:00 PM


today finally got the chance to buy all my yoga stuff (:
as in, the right dressing for them yoga. haha.

cool beans.

and with everything that has happened,
i think i wanna relax,
loose,
tone up,
and get my mind off of stuff.

so yeah!
i can't wait (:

mom's leaving tomorrow. :(
and dad just came back.

they're taking turns to fly off.
ugh.

okay.
2 days with mom and i only got
2 tops and 1 bottom for yoga,
2 tops and a pair of earrings.

rah.

okay.
i need to shop shop shop.
some more.

having to rewear clothes are annoying.
-.-

haha. omg.
check this out.
major cuteness heh.


and it seems like i can't live a day without you
closing my eyes till you chase my thoughts away

11:41:00 PM


so i'm counting my tears
till i get over you

11:23:00 PM


and they say honesty is my only trait.
well, i view it as a flaw.

10:44:00 PM


would you look me in the eyes
and tell me that you are happy
would you tell it to my face or have i been erased
are you happy now?
are you happy now?

10:24:00 PM


where's the good in goodbye?

1:30:00 PM


never thought that even the sound of your voice
would bring tears streaming down my face

1:23:00 PM


all the thoughts lead back to you.

12:54:00 AM


i miss you, miss you so bad
i don't forget you, oh it's so sad
i hope you can hear me
i remember it clearly

the day you slipped away
was the day i found it won't be the same

i didn't get around to kiss you
goodbye on the hand
i wish that i could see you again
i know that i can't

12:46:00 AM


after all these months of pondering
what to get me for my birthday and christmas?

now it's simple and easy.

cause all and what i want is you.

12:07:00 AM


Saturday, November 26, 2005

it's 1159pm.

this day, i'll never forget.
kinda hard to, ever.

11:59:00 PM


you want a plain jane?
i'll be that plain jane you want.

11:55:00 PM


i pray that the Lord would one day somehow send you back my way

baby i miss you
oh yes i do
i need to be back in your arms
i never stop loving you
my heart is where you belong
baby i miss you
before heaven and earth pass away
Lord please show me what to do
tell me what to say
cause were come too far to let it slip away
cause were come too far to let it slip away

11:40:00 PM


fourmonthsoneweekandfourdays
nineteenweeksandaday
hundredandthirtyfivedays

are you so willing to let it all go?

11:22:00 PM


and i know i just need one more chance
to prove my love to you
if you come back to me
i'll guarantee
that i'll never let you go

can we go back to the days our love was strong
can you tell me how a perfect love goes wrong
can somebody tell me how to get things back
the way they use to be
oh God give me a reason
i'm down on bended knee
i'll never walk again
until you come back to me
i'm down on bended knee

when i open up my eyes
to face reality
every moment without you
it seems like eternity
i'm begging you, begging you come back to me

gonna swallow my pride, say i'm sorry
STOP pointing fingers the blame is on ME
i want a new life and i want it with you
if you feel the same don't ever let it go

you gotta believe in the spirit of love
it can heal all things we won't hurt any more
no i don't believe our love's terminal
i'm down on my knees begging you please
come home

10:37:00 PM


why’d you have to go
why’d you have to go
why’d you have to go??

10:11:00 PM


wouldn't wanna be swept away,
far away from the one that i love.
hold me now.
it's hard for me to say i'm sorry.
i just want you to know.
hold me now.
i really want to tell you i'm sorry.
i could NEVER let you go.

after all that we've been through,
i will make it up to you.
i promise to.
and after all that's been said and done,
you're just the part of me i CAN'T let go.

10:04:00 PM


i was stupid
i was foolish
i was lying to myself
i could not fathom that i would ever
be without your love
never imagined i'd be
sitting here beside myself

i didn't know you
i didn't know me
but i thought i knew everything
i never felt
the feeling that i'm feeling now
now that i don't
hear your voice
or even touch or even kiss your lips
cause i don't have a choice
what i wouldn't give
to have you lying by my side

we belong together
when you left
i lost a part of me
it's still so hard to believe
come back baby please
we belong together
who else am i gonna lean on
when times get rough
who's gonna talk to me
till the sun comes up
who's gonna take your place
baby nobody else
we belong together

i can't sleep at night
when you're all on my mind
Bobby Womack's on the radio
singing to me
'if you think you're lonely now'
wait a minute
this is too deep, too deep
i gotta change the station
so i turn the dial
trying to catch a break
and then i hear Babyface
i only think of you
and it's breaking my heart
i'm trying to keep it together
but i'm falling apart
i'm feeling all out of my element
i'm throwing things
crying
the pain reflected in this song
ain't even half of what
i'm feeling inside
i need you
need you back in my life baby

4:02:00 PM


although we've come to the end of the road
still i can't let you go
it's unnatural,
you belong to me,
i belong to you
come to the end of the road
still i can't let you go
it's unnatural,
you belong to me,
i belong to you

3:53:00 PM


rain outside my window pouring down
what now,
you're gone,
my fault,
i'm sorry
feeling like a fool cause i let you down
now it's, too late, to turn it around
i guess this time it really is goodbye

i know that i made a few mistakes
but never thought that things would turn out this way
cause i'm missing something now that your gone

3:34:00 PM


ive lost everything

3:00:00 PM


Friday, November 25, 2005

my fantabulous maid is whipping me up some requested maggi meeee ((:

last time i ate those nasty fattening foods was like during obs
where i put on 1 half kilos 0.0
growls.

(and not forgetting those nasty skin peelings as well?? :o)

of which i took MONTHS to shake them OFF OFF OFF -.-
haha. i'm pretty successful so far heh (:

(considering what dearest dora told me yesterday((:)

shake them FATS AND MUSCLES off.
omg.
the 23k of kayaking did my arms HUGE.
and i DO mean, HUGE.
of which, is, pun intended -snores-

okay!

330!
town!
laura!
:D

1:09:00 PM


AH!

can't stretch or crumple up my face,
IT HURTS.

as the tee lies on thy shoulders,
IT HURTS!

:(((((((((((((

12:00:00 PM


nobody's going to love me better
i must to stick with you forever
nobody's going to take me higher
i must to stick with you
you know how to appreciate me
i must to stick with you
my baby
nobody ever made me feel this way
i must to stick with you

11:47:00 AM


omg. today's a freakily bad but almost salvage-able day :o

okay! first things first!
sentosa-ing,
today,
i did.
omg. major sunburn.
my face and shoulder areas are in pain :(

and it soo reminds me of the last time i got a sunburn-
OBS!
which means major nose AND skin peeling.
:(((((

and flu the whole dam day.
was sneezing my whole way through while sentosa-ing >l

AND, my stupid slipper broke.
so had to buy UGLY sentosa slippers.
CLOWNISH, i must add.
oh wells.

to town it was!
and the friction from the slippers were getting to me.

AND...

later on i was on the verge of loosing something, so very important to me...
OF WHICH i COMPLETELY pushed aside IN A WAY this week...
yes.. wrong OF ME.
BUT!
with my strong determination and...
SINCERITY..
i managed to salvage it. (in a way)

therefore...
i'm feeling like a pretty happy girl now (:

and furthermore..
friday's...
TODAY!

sweet. (:

okay. but fact is,
I'M STILL IN PHYSICAL PAIN :(

and banana boat aloe vera aint helping much :(
rah.

and i'm REALLY tired.
i'm completely drained from sentosa-ing.
not forgetting the flu GOT to me since after sentosa-ing.
-.-

12:40:00 AM


Thursday, November 24, 2005

and to think i said i wanted to sleep early.
rah.

1:27:00 AM


i try to dig,
for what i thought would last forever.

:(

rahh.

it's always good not to think too much.
but then again,
in the process of doing so,
i tend to push those stuff completely out of my mind instead.
just some times.
when i'm not alone that is...

cause when you're alone,
it usually just all comes tumbling back,
on your MOONLIKE BRAIN indeed.

:/

i'm a messyemotionshandler.
basically i cant handle them well.
at all.

to be taught how to,
could be the best option :O

cause it's tremendously selfish of me to simply party away,
to forget (or rather forget at that point of time)
oh wells.
kkaaaaapuiii to me -.-

12:31:00 AM


window shopper
i did almost completely nothing today but yet i'm super tired.
why, i wonder.

12:04:00 AM


Wednesday, November 23, 2005

it goes 1 by 1
even 2 by 2
everybody on the floor let me show you how we do
lets go dip it low then you bring it up slow
wine it up 1 time wine it back once more

run, run, run, run
everybody move run
lemme see you move and
rock it til the grooves done
shake it til the moon becomes the sun
everybody in the club give me a run
if you ready to move say it
yeah yeah
one time for your mind say it
yeah yeah
well i'm ready for ya
come let me show ya
you want to groove
imma show you how to move
come come

friday's calling out fer meee :D

1 MORE DAY.


11:59:00 PM


notfilc - will i be able to see you next year? says:
i eat red beans
notfilc - will i be able to see you next year? says:
=P
jun says:
i eat both red and green beans therefore im coool(:

therefore.. COOL BEANS :D
cause 'cool beans' IS the most trendy statement and NOT
yo yo yo yo embryo.
HAHA. boredom.

woke up so late today.
woke at 12+
that's for phone-ing till four wee am. -.-
haha. but i like (:

730 at holland v.
am i gonna be late? :o


6:09:00 PM


gold digger

omg. my left earlobe's painful :(
there's like this lump there :(
could it be infected?
but it's itchy.
painful itchy it is. :(

4:38:00 PM


drop dead bored.

for the night i'll wait.
but for friday night i certainly can't take.
the anticipation, it's killing me.
but the drinks are awaiting me (:

quaintly fun it always is (:
and quaintly fun it'll most probably be :o
or perhaps pure fun it'll really be :D


2MORE DAYS.


linwei: after several months of not blogging,
maybe this is a way of "making up" for it? haha.
and everytime i'm home i'm online.
and friendster's uberr laggy and blogs are getting super boring.
so i'll, in a way, be 'talking to myself' when blogging. HAHA
nothing to do is like that one what. HAHA.

2:22:00 PM



2:02:00 PM


Tuesday, November 22, 2005

i'm up from my down.
i turn it around.
but making it back,
i'm not gonna drown.
i'm taking a stance.
i won't miss a chance.
i want you to see
i'm not scared to dance.

12:25:00 PM


i dream of another you
the one who would never
leave me alone to pick up the pieces

tell me the truth,
did you ever love me?
did you ever love me?
cause these are, these are
the confessions of a broken heart

i love you
i love you
i love you
i love you

12:10:00 PM


is anybody gonna save me?
can anybody tell me what's going on?
tell me what's going on?
if you open your eyes
you'll see that something is wrong

i guess things are not how they used to be

12:02:00 PM


don't say those words it's so hard
they turn my whole world upside down

2:54:00 AM


it's 230am and i'm starved.
which means?

it's time for bed.

cause it's a major nono to suppering.
so no food in the mouth after dinner! (:

2:29:00 AM


haha. cute (:

2:22:00 AM


these are pretty (: and pink is uberr prettieeee ((:

2:06:00 AM


omg. aren't they the cutest?? (((:

1:54:00 AM


in the fallen snow under the mistletoe
i need you here with me when i hold you close
baby, take my hand in wonderland
cause its merry christmas time again (:



i love christmas (:

cant wait (:
getting alll ready for the season (:
the most anticipated season of the year it certainly is (:
PLUS the celebration of my 18th birthday (:


the wait almost kills me (:


1:31:00 AM


okay.

i majorly hate cabdrivers,
who, drive
sooooo dammm slowlyy.

must i add when it's already midnight,
AND if i'm not wrong.....
i presume there ARE LITTLE cars on the road?

perhaps?
maybe? :o

growls.


okay.
facts:

i'm MAJORLY broke.
(every cent counts)
money is a huge concern.
it's the holidays.
i need cash. booooo :(

12:52:00 AM


Monday, November 21, 2005

whatcha been doin'?
whatcha been doin?
whoa,
whoa,
haven't seen ya 'round,

how you been feelin'?
how you been feelin'?
whoa,
whoa,
don't you bring me down.

11:58:00 AM


omg. i need to sui jiao!
if not my eyebags will be.....................................:X

3:15:00 AM


"...when you have nothing much to do and
boom.
it comes to you like some stupid spaceship
landing on your moon-like brain..."


another one of cand's ex-entries.

haha. omg. it WAS allll relative. hmmm......
and THIS is DAM funny HAHA.

reminiscing just brings back soo many memories(:
haha.

-pokes cand-




2:47:00 AM


"super ultra mega wega supa dupa oh my frigging way slow my gosh!"


sentence of the day.

cand stumbled upon this while she was doing her archives.
and she has to be eternally greatful cause i taught her how(:
and she said i said that last time.
omgness.

like..wtf? haha.:o

2:43:00 AM


but even if i were jane or something it would be no different.
because a rose of any other name would smell as sweet (:
/ junkissed

boredom.

2:39:00 AM


haha. omg. my links are MAJORLY pathetic. haha.
but i've lost ALL my links.
firstly, i've not linked anyone for pretty darn long.
furthermore.. i don't really read anyone's blog. :o

2:16:00 AM


seems like everybody is breaking up
throwing their love away

"it's the breaking up season" says cand.
and aud.

anything's possible:
for the better or for the worse.


well, at least i'm already mentally prepared-

for the worst(:

1:48:00 AM


back not too long ago (:
holright the HOLIDAYS are hereHERE. :D
and i'm somewhat expecting or rather hoping the fun to be like last year (:
i cant wait for this week! (:
woooh! ((((:
it's time to take my mind OFF stuff and just have MY FUN ~
-like what la always tells me ((:
yay yay i'm bobbing for the week ahead ((:

1:09:00 AM


Sunday, November 20, 2005

driven by insanity.

till i've lost track of time.
it's already 3.
i'm gonna be late.

3:03:00 PM


eight songs that get stuck in your head frequently:
1. simple plan crazy
2. pcd stickwitu
3. mariah carey don't forget about us
4. avril lavigne slipped away
5. avril lavigne things i'll never say
6. jessica simpson sweet kisses
7. kelly clarkson because of you
8. kayne west & jaime fox gold digger

four beverages you drink frequently:
1. ice tea
2. green tea
3. ice lemon tea
4. milo

five tv shows you liked when you were a little kid:
1. scooby doo
2. little lulu
3. cow and chicken
4. powerpuff girls
5. pokemon
6. dexter and deedee

four places to go in your area:
1. ssc
2. parkway
3. siglap
4. my house

four things you do when you're bored.
1. stone
2. think
3. listen to music
4. online

four things that never fail to cheer you up:
1. friends
2. sleep
3. music
4. time

four things you can't live without:
1. you
2. friends and family
3. money
4. cell and comp

about ten years ago *list three things*
1. i was the cutest thing i swear
2. i was wayy smarter
3. i was very different

about two years ago *list three things*
1. i joined the dragon year
2. i was an amateur
3. i was in st nicks (:

about one year ago *list three things*
1. o levels -.-
2. things weren't so complicated
3. i had a bag full of fun(:

today.
1.
2.
3.

seven things you love.
1. you
2. friends
3. family
4. being loved
5. the way things were
6. doing everything with you
7. cuddling up in your arms

seven things you hate..
1. how things are now
2. my life
3. the way you're treating me
4. feeling fat
5. my eyebags
6. yj
7. everything

seven things on your desk:
1. my gucci envy me
2. my box
3. calender
4. papers
5. mags
6. tissue box
7. headset

seven facts about you:
1. far from perfect
2. pessimist
3. not very bright
4. sinful
5. lazy
6. superficial
7. materialistic

seven artists/bands people should give a listen to:
1. boys2men
2. pcd
3. mariah carey
4. avril lavigne
5. simple plan
6. 3 doors down
7. blackeyedpeas

three things you like about the opposite sex:
1. the kind of attention they give
2. the initiative
3. their nonsense

three things you would eat on the last day of your life:
1. you *mum mum*
2. coffeeclubsmudpie tiramisu bigOsbaileycheesecake sweetsecrets etoile brownies and chocs
3. yami yogurt and subway

four things you'd like to learn:
1. how to get rich
2. how to please you
3. how to be a better gf
4. how to turn my life around

2:59:00 PM


[my name is]: Liu Junyi
[height?]: 5'2
[in the morning i am]: hungry and tired and ready for breakfast!
[all i need is]: you, friends and family
[love is]: you ?
[if i could see one person right now]: you
[i'm afraid of]: loosing you
[i dream about]: many things in life

-Have you ever ?
[pictured your crush naked?]: uhm. that's wrong.
[been in love]: -
[cried when someone died]: okay. i cried BAD when baby died:'(
[lied]: everyone lies.
[coke or pepsi]: coke
[flowers or candy]: flowers are a heart melter(:
[tall or short]: id like to go with tall though im uber short

-Wth the opposite sex.
[what do you notice first?]: physicals
[last person you slow danced with]: slow danced hmmm...
[worst question to ask]: not sure.

-Who:
[makes you laugh the most?]: ridiculous people
[makes you smile]: my certains(:
[gives you a funny feeling when you see them]:
[who do you have a crush on?]: null.
[easiest to talk to]: you

-Do you ever?
[stay on aim, waiting for someone special to IM you]: maybe.
[save AOL/aim conversations]: nope.
[wish you were a member of the opposite sex]: some times.
[cry because of someone saying something to you]: well..

-Have you ever
[fallen for your best friend]: nope.
[been rejected?]:
[rejected someone]: uhm. once this year?
[used someone]: used is harsh.
[been cheated on]: i think?
[cheated on someone]: i hardly think so.
[done something you regret]: one bad move last night

-Who was the last person..
[you talked to on the phone]: ree
[hugged]: laura
[you instant messaged]: fel
[instant messaged you?]: fel
[you laughed with]: my sis
[color your hair]: only permed and bonded
[habla espanol]: hmm?
[smoke cigarettes]: not once.
[obsessive]: i would have to admit.
[could you live without the computer?]: not really.
[how many peeps are on your buddylist?]: i'm not gonna count.
[what's your favorite food?]: plenty.
[whats your favorite fruit?]: plenty.
[drink alchohol?]: when clubbing or socialising and when i wanna drown in selfpity
[like watching sunrises or sunset]: sunsets are sweet
[what hurts the most, physical or emotional pain?] i think i prefer physical cause i cant handle the emotional.
[trust others way too easily?]: sometimes.


2:10:00 PM


THREE THINGS I LOVE
01 - him?
02 - selected friends
03 - family

THREE THINGS I HATE
01 - the way you treat me
02 - my life at this point
03 - yj's system

THREE THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND
01 - you
02 - life
03 - you

THREE THINGS ON MY DESK
01 - my gucci envy me(:
02 - calender
03 - tissue

THREE THINGS I'M DOING RIGHT NOW
01 - this
02 - listening to music
03 - breathing

THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE
01 - tell the significants what i wanna
02 - slap you awake
03 - then after you've woken up cuddle up in your arms and tell you how much i love you

THREE THINGS I CAN DO
01 - talk
02 - read
03 - write

THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY
01 - fucked up
02 -
03 -

THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY LOOKS
01 - eyebags
02 - eyebags
03 - eyebags ; ugly

THREE THINGS I CAN'T DO
01 - promote
02 - change your mentality
03 - please you

THREE THINGS I THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO
01 - me
02 - boys2men
03 - mariah carey's don't forget about us

THREE THINGS I DON'T THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO EVER
01 -
02 -
03 -

THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST
01 - i'm bored
02 - i'm hungry
03 - f*

THREE OF YOUR ABSOLUTE FAVORITE FOODS
01 - chocolates
02 - pastries
03 - cakes

THREE BEVERAGES YOU DRINK REGULARLY
01 - ice tea / ice lemon tea / green tea
02 - milo
03 - barley

THREE THINGS YOU'D LIKE TO LEARN
01 - how to get rich
02 - how to ever please you
03 - how to turn this life round

THREE SHOWS YOU WATCHED WHEN YOU WERE A KID
01 - most cartoons on cartoon network
02 - strawberry shortcake
03 - carebears and my little pony

THREE SHOWS YOU WATCH NOW
01 - project runway
02 - the O.C
03 - mtv

THREE OF YOUR BEST FRIENDS
01 - la
02 - aud
03 - you ?

THREE OF THE BEST SONGS
01 -
02 -
03 -

THREE OF THE BEST MOVIES
01 - sweet
02 - succulent
03 - saccharine treacly movies

THREE THINGS YOU WISH THEY KNEW
01 - rumours are not always true
02 - how i'm wishing my life away
03 - with these things i'll never say

THREE THINGS THAT MAKE YOU CRY
01 - things you say
02 - things you do
03 - the O.C. haha

THREE THINGS THAT MAKE YOU SMILE
01 - things you say
02 - things you do
03 - things others say and do(:

THREE THINGS THAT MAKE YOU LAUGH
01 - stupid things that people do
02 - honestly?
03 - when people accidentally fall down.:X

THREE WISHES YOU WOULD MAKE
01 - infinite amount of wishes
02 - wish for a better life and a happily ever after
03 - a better physical appearance

1:52:00 PM


Name: Liu Junyi
Date Of Birth: 24 December 1987
Location: Singapore ( Mount Elizabeth )
Occupation: student
Hair: black
Eyes: black
Height: 159/160 cm/5'2"
Clothing: whatever
Music: no metal and techno.
Make up:
Body art:
Wearing: tee and shorts
Listening to: was listening to boys2men and i cant find the darn lyrics ugh
Thinking of: many stuff.
Bought: nothing.
Ate & Drank: some weird tart.
Read: my past years entries and this was what i stumbled upon. did it years back:o
Watched on tv: mtv's access.

LAST PERSON YOU...AND WHEN?
Touched: laura?
Talked to: my dad
Hugged: laura
Instant messaged: fel
Who broke your heart:

HAVE YOU EVER
Dated one of your best friends? they're girls?
Loved somebody so much it makes you cry: uhm.
Drank alcohol:
Done drugs: nope
Broken the law?: it's hard not to ever
Ran away from home?: how bout overnight runaways
Broken a bone?: cracked my skull?
Cheated on a test?: haha.
Skinny dipped?: i should try it one day.
Played truth or dare?: yes
Flashed somene?: ha no.
Kissed someone you didn’t know?: what's the exact definition of 'someone you didn’t know' ?
Been on a talk show/game show?: nah.
Been in fight?: sisters? ha.
Ridden in a fire truck?: only in an ambulance
Come close to dying?: i think.
Gave someone a piggy back/shoulder rid?: it's the opposite (:
Eaten a worm?: haha yah.
Swam in the ocean?: ocean? how bout sea?
Had a nightmare/dream that made you wake up?: plenty.

WHAT IS
The most embarrassing CD in your collection: i must honestly admit it has to be F4.
Your bedroom like?: an orange wall with the rest white
Your favourite thing for breakfast?: it changes everyday
Your favourite thing for lunch?: ditto.
Your favourite thing for dinner?: ditoo.
Your favourite restaurant?: none in specifics.
A good student?: i'd like to think i am.
Good at sports?: oh well. i'm not.
A good singer?: well, i'm good at zaoxia-ing
A good actor?: haha. nope.
A good dancer?: hows cheerleading?
Shy?: sometimes.
Outgoing?: sometimes.
Last words?: life sucks.


this is plainly out of boredom. did it when i was sec3? haha.
reminiscing my 2002s weirdiwisomness?

12:56:00 PM


i'm FCKING tired.
so i'll HOPEFULLY get a good rest without waking up in the middle of the night(:
with worrying thoughts constantly swarmping around in my troubled mind.

okayy.
i'm off.

-swoosh-

2:25:00 AM


why, do you always do this to me?
why, couldn't you just see through me?
how come, you act like this
like you just don't care at all
do you expect me to believe i was the only one to fall?

tell me, are you and me still together?
tell me, do you think we could last forever?
tell me, why

hey, listen to what we're not saying
let's play, a different game than what we're playing
try, to look at me and really see my heart
do you expect me to believe i'm gonna let us fall apart?

so go and think about whatever you need to think about
go on and dream about whatever you need to dream about
and come back to me when you know just how you feel, you feel


2:23:00 AM


thanks to la and ree for today(:
on seperate accounts and MUCH appreciated(:

hmmm...well, appreciation. ?
seldom apparent these days eh?
it's okay.
immunity takes hold with time.
and everything will be fine, (or so i'd like to think)
in the short run.
it's terrible way of handling but i do not have many choices.

so the ice-creams were good though majorly fattening.
imagine the amount of calories of the 3 big fat scoops with plenty of toppings:o
but it was .. nice, still.(:
haha. next time i think laura and i will plunge into the world of fats wayyy BEFORE 8 when our fats are still able to be burnt at a faster rate,
which we highly applaud and advocate.(:
exercise is rare-
:. metabolism rate do we highly depend on.:o

i'm tired. shocked that it's 2 till trish informed me.
eyes are..
well..
you know.
hit the sack i shall, SOON.


back and forth inside my head

2:10:00 AM


i'm giving up on everything
because you messed me up
don't know how much you
screwed it up
you never listened
that's just too bad
because i'm moving on
i won't forget
you were the one that was wrong
i know i need to step up and be strong
don't patronize me

have you forgotten
everything that i wanted
do you forget it now
you never got it
do you get it now

gotta get away
there's no point in thinking about yesterday
it's too late now
it won't ever be the same
we're so different now


taggie's back with request from miss ree who simply cant sign my gb.
haha :o


1:47:00 AM


Friday, November 18, 2005

i don't know who you are
but i'm with you


12:07:00 AM


Thursday, November 17, 2005

i looked away
then i look back at you
you try to say
the things that you can't undo
if i had my way
i'd never get over you
today's the day
i pray that we make it through

make it through the fall
make it through it all

and i don't wanna fall to pieces
i just want to sit and stare at you
i don't want to talk about it
and i don't want a conversation
i just want to cry in front of you
i don't want to talk about it
cause i'm in love with you

you're the only one,
i'd be with till the end
when i come undone
you bring me back again
back under the stars
back into your arms

wanna know who you are
wanna know where to start
i wanna know what this means
wanna know how you feel
wanna know what is real
i wanna know everything, everything

cause i'm in love with you
i'm in love with you
i'm in love with you

11:58:00 PM


california here we come.
right back where we started from.
california,
here we come~
the addiction to muaa OC is back!
with thanks to la and the watching of OC at her house(:

oc somehow always affects my feelings plenty.
:. things might just change:o

11:38:00 PM


Wednesday, November 16, 2005

somebody take me and lets flyy away from this emotional trauma(:

-i wasn't brought into this world to be taken advantage of.
neither was i brought into this world to be taken for granted.
i didn't give, to receive all the pain that you've showered upon me.
maybe it's good to good riddance(:

10:44:00 PM


Tuesday, November 15, 2005

life is beyond horrid at this point of time?
nothing surprises me anymore.

11:00:00 PM


Sunday, November 13, 2005

in the middle of the night when you awake,
are you calling out for me?
do you ever reminisce?
i can't believe i'm acting like this i know it's crazy...

every time the phone rings,
do you wish it was me calling you
do you still feel the same
or has time put out the flame
i miss you...
is everything okay?

9:22:00 PM


my weakness is that i care too much
omg. how time really flies.
it's sunday.
there's school tomorrow.
and the last time i went out went out was monday. ?
0.0

i can't help you fix yourself
but at least i can say i tried

8:10:00 PM


when everything is going wrong
and things are just a little strange
cause for so long now
you've forgotten how to smile.
and overhead the skies are clear
but it still seems to rain on you,
and your only friends
all have better things to do.

when youre down and lost and you need a helping hand
when youre down and lost along the way
oh, just tell yourself
i, i'll be okay

now things are only getting worse
and you need someone to take the blame
when your lovers gone
there's no-one to share the day
your sleeping with the TV on
and your lying in an empty bed
all the alcohol in the world
could never help me to forget

when youre down and lost and you need a helping hand
when youre down and lost along the way,
just try a little harder
try your best to make it
through the day,

oh just tell yourself
i, i'll be okay
you're not alone (you're not alone)
you're not alone (you're not alone)
you're not alone

just tell yourself
i, i'll be okay
oh, just tell yourself
i, i'll be okay
won't you tell yourself

when youre down and lost and you need a helping hand
when youre down and lost along the way,
try a little harder
try your best to make it through the day

oh, just tell yourself
i, i'll be okay
i, i'll be okay
i, i'll be okay

7:30:00 PM


feelings of appreciation from you?
NULL.

so now that life has hit below rock bottom......
i'll just wait for it to rise up once again (:

3:52:00 PM


push, you do.
sometimes what you wish so hard now,
may come true later on-
becareful what you wish for.
you might just get it.

3:43:00 PM


now everytime i see you
i pretend i'm fine
when i wanna reach out to you
but i turn and i walk and i let it ride
baby i must confess
we were bigger than anything
remember us at our best
and don't forget about

late nights, playin' in the dark
and wakin' up inside my arms
boy, you'll always be in my heart and
i can see it in your eyes
you still want it
so don't forget about us

when it's for real, it's forever
so don't forget about us

there's only one me and you
and how we used to shine
no matter what you go through
we are one, that's a fact
that you can't deny
so baby we just can't let
the fire pass us by
forever we'd both regret
so don't forget about us.

2:16:00 PM


sometimes, it's not all just about you.
where's even the little about me?

2:14:00 AM


i really gotta get up outta here
and go somewhere
i gotta shake it off
gotta make that move
find somebody who
appreciates all the love i give
boy i gotta shake it off
gotta do what's best for me
baby and that means i gotta
shake it off

12:52:00 AM


Thursday, November 10, 2005

and deep inside i wish it was me instead
life is unfair.

11:50:00 AM


Sunday, November 06, 2005

i'm forced to fake
a smile, a laugh everyday of my life

friday/saturday;
just like heaven's a heart-melter.
simply the sweestest (:
though it didnt work for aud and serene....
but it worked for me and cand(:

saving face after which.
was supposed to be real good.?
but i missed half the show:(
335am shows obviously do not work for me:(

well...


being out from dusk till dawn certainly brings back memories >>>
singledom with aaaabsolute havoc-
party admist the smoke,
the alcohol,
AND the many bunkings.
misses to that.

and the freedom of choice


ANYWAY,


a yay-yay to today! (:
and...
tomorrow's the signing up to the losing and the toning! :D
with ree.(:

yoga,
pilates etcetc

HERE WE COME!

11:37:00 PM


Thursday, November 03, 2005

you put the lime in the coke, you nut
omgness. how much cuter can a advertisement get (:






pfffft. time really flies even after exams.
my mommy's coming back from japan tomorrow.
and it seems like it was just yesterday that she flew off.

and it simply sickens me to stay home all day -.-
blame the attack of my sporadic disease.

struck on saturday.
lasted the whole of my precious sunday.
monday was fine; imagine if it weren't? my chi ao.......
tuesday was bad bad bad.
and only wednesday early morning was bad.

staying home too much makes me get migraines.

dismal :[

10:09:00 AM


Wednesday, November 02, 2005

my newest next most favvourite show -
project runway (:

with blonde thick-framed-specs geek
as my favvourite designer (:

husk-tle for me

11:39:00 AM