if i had one wish we would run awaymaking love all day, have us a baby.if i had one wish i’d make you my whole lifeand you'd be my husband, make it right this time.
11:10:00 PM
 today was cliffy time HAHA.
subway AND studying partner! :D
and we did both today :o
and i only just realised that they both start with 's'
haha. oh well...
all i'm looking forward to is the weekend.
i need rest.
fel, yanchao, i, etc.
say this like, unknowingly every few minutes-
"i'm tired"
giving that super dead and tired look HA.
oh well...
i think markiepoo's booking out NEXT FRIDAY!:D
ohohoh can't wait.
ugh. i can't tolerate the short talks any longer
and the super lack of privacy on the phone!
(i mean over at his side)
rrah.
and i'm soo not gonna dance chinese dance for yj ugh.
AND MUMMY'S BACK!!! :DDDD
-jumps up and down-
oh! and she bought me like this super pretty bottle of perfume!:)
like, it's pink with pretty crystals on thaa bottle!
oh pretty pretty :))
i missed her.
and now i feel relieved i can finally talk to her:)
YAY!
and john's annoying-.-
JOHN!
you ARE annoying. grrrr...............................
10:45:00 PM
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
my love is longer than forever
and endless as the march of time
'till ninety-nine years after never
in my heart you'll still be mine
because my love
my love is a deep blue sea
so deep,
so deep that i'll never be free
my love for you is a deep blue sea
it's grown so strong that i'll never be free
that's why my love,
my love is a deep blue sea
11:11:00 PM
oops just got home.went out with missy jas today!!! :DDfine and dandy it was..-sneersand there was this freako wushu guywho came out of nowhere,flaunted his stupid scary wushu RIGHT AT OUR FACES (literally!)and kinda chased after usand we scurried off swiftly to the ladies!-hurls at the thought-scared the shit out of us la omg..OH WELL....
it ain't healthy to constantly meet heror my brains will turn to taufoo like hers HAHA.but i'm gonna get more of it friday and next wed :Othe horror.................................tomorrow is clifton choo dayand friday is meeting with the clique!~(i seriously feel like ponning dance come friday-.-)AND...the meeting of the boy on sunday!!~!!~!:Dall the way at jurong military camp though......HMM.....i miss the boy:(KAAAPUIIIII!
10:48:00 PM
no calls from the man yet:(his cell is off!argh.suckors. this was precisely whyi never really wanted him to go ocsthough i supported him (did not initially though)since that was what he really wanted.AND the time off between us was supposedly supposed to be good.HMMM.....
9:54:00 PM
why is it when there's a math test the day beforei'm always online chatting? haha.omg. and i've still yet to bathe despite reaching homeat an early of six thirty.was watching the 40 year old virgincause apparently mark watched it with the other yjcianslast year -.-OKAY! whatever.. haha.but thanks to johnny john john for lending me!!:Dthough i havent finished watching it.came online in the midst of it.omg. lets hope i pass my test tomorrow! -crosses fingers-rrah. it's such a hot day. pfft.
9:02:00 PM
didn't i give you nearly everything that a woman possibly can?:( HAII!school sucks! i'm starting to feel foreign to all my work again.and... conversations with the man are starting to reduceto what seems almost null.oh wells..i'll just live with itand just float on whereever my boat takes me:oi want you to come on take another little piece of my heart now, break another little bit of my heart now,have another little piece of my heart now, baby you know you got it if it makes you feel good :(
11:16:00 PM
i dread school tomorrow.but i dread dance like a million times more -.- ughh.
12:17:00 AM
now you say you love me
well, just to prove that you do
come on and cry me a river
cry me a river
i cried a river over you
i cried a river over you
i cried a river over you
12:01:00 AM
you drove me, nearly drove me, out of my headwhile you never shed a tear.i miss him :(i miss la.i miss jas.i miss aud.i miss dora.i miss jingqin.i miss aalot of people :/
11:35:00 PM
your love for me was everything i needthe air i breathe-saturday was :o ! went out with la the whole afternoon (:
much loveeee.
it's like,
some of my happiest moments in life,
are spent with her ((: no doubts bout that~rrah.-bites her-we watched our very FIRST movie together just yesterday,believe it or not.and of all shows we watch-THE HILLS HAVE EYES.the gory part wasn't what really got to me.it was more the shock factor i swear.omg.we held each other tight,and we both SCREAMED.if i'm not wrong,it's the first movie i've ever screamed in? :oafter that it was dinner with shaf!i made him realise that subway ain't that bad afterallafter his one first bad experience hoho!and not forgetting the ginger feeding session!for friday and saturday cause mark's at camp and his mommy's at malaysia.yes, his mom asked.what was terrible WAS that THE HILLS HAVE EYESwas haunting my mind, but only when it's dark and i'm alone.
so all alone at his house,with cute little ginger meow-ing as i went in (:
love her :))
but it was super freaky so i had to super rush through everything.
feed, change water, clear shit & pee and replace the newspapersAND water the plants.
YES, all that while freaking the hell out :Sand today was studying session with john!
i did some work (:
barely anything but i still attempted my econs homework at least..
attempted, let me re-emphasize..
cause i'm still super unsure on how to do it -.-
and geog is also ????
cause i'm a total idiot when it comes to the physical part gahh.
i'm broke.
i've only 20 for this week.
4 bucks a day, yes siree!
either way,
meeting cliffy this tuesday tentative!
it's been too long since we've last met.
now that i have no dance on wednesdays,
we cannot resume our usual wednesday subwaying at novena like we used to:(
no worries! tuesday tentatively! :D
cliffy choo choo~
and yes,
i miss the man.
average of 3 minutes talk time a day.
it's like,
suck my foot rrah.
bummer:'(
btw, today's andrew HENG's 18th birthday!
haha. shan't do wishings as he doesn't really go online! :O
10:43:00 PM
even if i wanted to, i don't think that i'd get to you.there's nothing i can say to you to make you feel alive again-
9:44:00 AM
a 3 minute and 9 second.that was all i got,to talk to him :(argh.
9:59:00 PM
you once filled my heart with no regrets, no fearsnow you'll find my heart filled to the top with tears.
8:46:00 PM
HAPPY 18TH JOHN! :Dcheers! ((:
8:15:00 PM
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
i'm super deprived of sleep i'm getting super tired.plus i have teachers who are all old and naggywho easily put me to sleep in class.superb.and the boy's so busy i can barely catch a few minutes on the phone with himoh curse the dam ocs.argh.feeling super moody -.-
10:44:00 PM
today, is honestly like much better than yesterdayin terms of my class people actually..and.... i now treasure times with andrew and sy likea ten thousand times more.haha. (:and i honestly miss subway outings with clifton!:(bbah. after the blocks he said! haha (:and i had a (: time today. (:yay!oh let them tongues wag.i have nothing to fear. [:
10:39:00 PM
i want someone to love me, someone who really understands.
who won't put himself above me, who just love me like a man-
12:05:00 AM
i'm tired. school ends late tomorrow.i want la and i want her bad.:( suckors.anyhoos, i want an infinite numer of grapes.cause i only have sour-now pass me some sweet ones please (:
11:45:00 PM
don't try to fool me, bejewel me
either amuse me or lose me
i'm getting hungry, peel me a grape
11:20:00 PM
baby just called.ranted.feels a bit better but still fuming.the army's also giving him problems too.and we're both miserable for now :(UGH.yj does the impossible. i swear.in a negative connotation OBVIOUSLY.and my mommy's flying off tonightand only coming back NEXT thursday. :'(i already miss her.argh.piss off.you seem to find the dark, when everything is brightyou look for all that's wrong, instead of all that's rightdoes it feel good to you, to rain on my parade?you never say a word, unless it's to complainit's driving me insane
8:06:00 PM
omg. first day of school,and it already seems like the worst.try to convince me, fel, yanchao, dylon, eddie and yiping otherwise.we all are disheartened and angry with the dam school's system.it's not just the classmates,but the teachers as well.yj seems to disappoint me time after time.it's like some vicious cycle UGH.the ONLY teacher we have left is fazli.ALL other teachers have changed.from geog, to econs to GP to lit. omg.EVEN mother tongue.when she's dam hell our form teacher.try to convince me this ain't nonsense will you please?AND,i super miss andrew AND soonyong DEARLY. :(i swear i feel like giving that mrs kwangone hell of a tight slap.yes,i'll try to contain my anger.cause i've got much to rant.first they took sze kai and jason away.it wasn't that bad.cause they showered us with andrew.and now,'poof' !ALL GONE!now it's soo quiet,we don't even hear the crickets. -.-we have CLL people flooding our class.our h2 maths tutorial has only SEVEN MEASLY people.only common subject amongst my class isE C O N S.and the teacher has changed,and already the first lesson and SMACK!she killed my love for econs. :(UGH.yj.......................................... -.-give me one big tight slap will you please.fel and i are super sad people.we can't get andrew and soon yong back.i can't friggin hell get out of dance.but jolly joy for them though.117 has the nicest people! yes, secretly envious.1.linwei2.charlene chow3.shing4.joan5.andrew6.soonyong7.sze kai8.jasoni think that's more than enough to name.and people like john are far away at 120:/even we have a more common combi than my class people la!omg.only consolation i have is that:though poor baby has to be confined 3 weeks,i get to visit him sunday (:details not comfirmed.AND KAI KAI WITH LA ON SATURDAY!!
FINALLY!! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDokay. -jumps up and downnnnn-super super SUPER cannot wait.i need her badly. :(OKAY! i have to do my econs homework. pfft.AND SO YOU THINK YOU CAN DANCE 830!needa tape for muhh baby.MAH FUN LEH HE...haha.mommy's going away tonight :(and back on thursday.i'll miss her dearly.boo...everything's going down down down the dam hill.)@&@*^!&*^#*@^$*
7:31:00 PM
how and why is it scary that i bloggedexactly one hour after the last post? eeeeeeeeep.
1:38:00 AM
and i'm falling in love with diana krall's songs (:
1:37:00 AM
just cry baby crycause every tear that flows falls into the oceanand rises to the skyand then the rain will comeright before the sun shines...-chants*
12:37:00 AM
1. cat = kucing2. dog = anjing3. rainbow = pelangi(:he's giving lessons in advance! hahaha.and they say you learn something new everyday [:and no one told me you'll know your classes through the eportal!dang. i'm so dumb. i just knew about it like, J U S T ! :/
12:35:00 AM
come monday my shifu shall teach me MALAY! :Dso i can speak to my maid and for more cool uses,whatever they may be. (:GUESS WHO!haha. i think i have only one malay friend.half malay to be exact.and i think that's the only malay friend i have. :O-prances around-
12:27:00 AM
 v-(: i love.nat portman (:pretty pretty~ ((:from closer, to v!closer was once my favv show! -gleams-watched it with markpoo plus his twooo of his friendssss.somehow as many times as i meet them,i swear it's pretty hard to actually remember their names.some, though, i can remember HA! (:oh well!it was a 2 hour plus show.it ended nearly 3am and i got a shock of my life.either way,it was soo intriguing,it got me hooked and became oblivious to the time.tra la la~~got my new maid today!now we've got to teach her every darn thing again.ggrahh.SCHOOL STARTS MONDAY!and dear baby's going to JURONG for ...*drum roll*OCS!he's super happy.and i am too!cause it gives me time for myself for PRODUCTIVE reasons(:less distraction is the key to success!haha. cause dearest jun is always getting her priorities wrongAND lets THE distraction get to her.and i told my mommy bout him getting into ocs, cause i knew she'd be happy HOHO.and true enough, she is(:WHOOPIE!-bounces around-i have ZERO idea why BUT i'm feeling excited for school.yes, mind boggling!ggah.ALL THIS STAYING AT HOME IS KILLING ME.i have yet to complete my homework.kaaapuiiii!
6:49:00 PM
i'm filling up inside
like i need to open wide and pour my heart out to you
but i'll just get denied
and all i want is someone to hear what i'm going through
you were supposed to see
all the signs i left to read infront of your face
you were supposed to be
the closest thing to being me
but your furthest away thats because
because in my life is where i need you now
but you're never there
you're never there
you're never there...
1:22:00 PM
standing on the shore watching our ship go down-whole day of being out yet once again.left my house at 10,and home just not too long ago.went out with part of the og group (:john, shaf, martin, kristelle, lijun, manying,maurice, desmond, mario and teck hwee. (:it's sad i know none who will be in the same class as me.oh wells. :/we can still meet up in school! :Doh wells..........water in my lungs and it's a pain to breathe
salt is in my eyes and it's a pain to see
i can't stand the pressure though you think i can
just don't wanna see it going down the pan.
1:05:00 AM
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
i need to chill.all this commotion, i cannot take.intolerable-
2:00:00 AM
we are EIGHT! (:
12:00:00 AM
 monday's nonsense! :D and T09!
which will be well missed. [:
especially the guys! haha.namely shaf, john, desmond, mario, weijie. [: oh wells!friday's jam&hop was jumping fun! [: bouncing away with szekai, jason, soonyong,john, linwei, shing and whoever else.with the popping in and out of andrew heng!haha. [: saturday had a great time at sn! :Dboy it sure did make me realise how pathetically disgustingand embarassing yj really is.and to think:
after all the hardwork of trying to numb myself to the environment...
it did pay off cause i got super used to it though i hated it like shit.either way.... it ain't that bad cause.... the people are :Dwoot! :))plus who did i stumble upon there! (:hoho.yes, mr soon, that's choo!after sn funfair,joined jas cia and shawn to dinner! (:wegners!sunday was a mark-filled day!and monday was 'finally catching up with ping day'!and later on,the meeting of jas cia and shawn.i adore shawn's presence cause of his carr ((:WOOT! :Dand today,ARMY DAZE!haha. boy must i tell you.i'm in love with kumar.he's.... haha. great love.army dazing with nicole, fel, soonyong, andrew and norine!okay!tomorrow's our eight!but first things first.with the beloved to NUS/NTU first for application stuff.tra la la~~
11:46:00 PM
 just some pics from tuesday-his graduation from bmt,my second 'aloha' to tekong ha.i'm having the worst sore throat ever again -.-and i realised people in yj are pretty sweet (:super unexpected* (in a good sense)as in one little incident :ooh wells.this years j1 badge seems pretty nice (:cool beans.and i have soo not finished the jam&hop stuff.i shall do it tomorrow :Xi'm in such deep shit. argh.and don't blame me if the songs suck! (:-take my mind to my little wonder landand fly my thoughts away (:-with my analogies used with la last night over the phone.(yes yes i'm practicing summary here)we'll find the dam shark,to sink the sampan,saw off the tree,though i'll still stick with the binoculars,and stubborn to statoscope,all due to the fact that i'm stick on hanging to that flickering hope,and,come what may.......inside stuff.only la and linwei will understand...a BIG thanks to you both.without those talks,i think it's redundant for me to spell it out la huh [:JAM AND HOP TOMORROW
AND SN FUNFAIR SATURDAY!i can't wait for the..'dora ree jiang jq trish' AND 'the jayjaxjags'.i need that.OUT! (:
11:16:00 PM
don't make we wait foreverjust because you know i will.don't leave me hanging, wishing, waiting,hoping that you'll call.darling hold me in your arms,and let me fall.rrah rrah.i'm still online. off to bed i go!-swoosh
12:00:00 PM
so a day when you've lost yourself completelycould be a night when your life endssuch a heart that will lead you to deceivingall the pain held in yourhands are shaking coldyour hands are mine to holdspeak to me, when all you got to keep is strongmove along, move along like i know you doand even when your hope is gonemove along, move along just to make it throughmove alongwhen everything is wrong we move alongwhen everything is wrong, we move alongalong, along, along (:-tomorrow he's finally graduating from bmt (:when the first orientation started,he just went in.the 2nd orientation,he's coming out (:speaking of orientation.i wouldn't say it's the most boring shit ever,cause it was fun, at times.but the rest was simply dreadful.the constant wait drained all the energy i had.but i wouldn't deny the dancing of mass dance was pretty pretty F-U-N, FUN!haha. especially when you have ridiculous partners.HAHA.andrew is certainly one.and sad but true. one thing's for sure-we all miss nicole kowk! :/- say now you want to shake me too
move down to me, slip into you
9:48:00 PM
if joy really comes in the morning time,then i'm gonna sit back and wait until the next sun rise.i'm deprived,i'm deprived,i'm deprived,i'm deprived,i'm deprived,i'mD E P R I V E D !i'm a girl,who's in constant deprivation!in many senses,thus, D-UH, more than one.rrah.OUT!
10:49:00 PM
 i just think this pic is superr cutethough it's beyond beyond small.i'll miss nicole dearly.and so does fel.she's like going insane that nicole's leaving.OH WELL!we can all meet up still! :Dlike we all are for army daze (:and dreadful school tomorrow!slap me pa-pa-pleeeasseeee...!
9:35:00 PM
and many a times i ponder,hard.as to whether i should heed all them advices;awake from my clouded mind.but-only to awake tothe lack of boldness to ahead with it.
11:22:00 PM
SENTOSA tomorrow with the class!i can finally sieze this opportunity to tan my eyebags away.
9:35:00 PM
i wake up in the morning,put on my face-the one that's gonna get me through another day.doesn't really matter how i feel inside,'cause life is like a game sometimes.
i cannot find a way to describe itit's there inside-all i do is hide.i wish that it would just go away.what would you do, if you knew?what would you do?
9:30:00 PM
how i wish i could walk through the doors of my mind; hold memory close at hand, help me understand the years.
9:02:00 PM
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
was seriously on the verge of tears,just hours away from the collection of the results.but oh how miracles shine upon me,on such rare and certainly appropriate occasions. (:a six!and miraculously,a grade higher than O's!with an exclamation from my mother"how was it possible when you didn't even study??!"but certainly she was filled with delight.and the father said"i shall give you a kiss on your cheek later."the 'aww's and '(:'s from it all..but what was )@&*@$^was that they didn't even know i was getting back my results,and only asked for mark's marks. -.-rrah.i'm currently bothered about my life. ughh.OUT!
10:18:00 PM
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