watch your back, like i'll watch mine
as much as i wanna let it go,
i still cant believe the atrocity.
immensely appalling please..
all i thank lord for is the people who're there.
how much lower can you go
im trying hard to be magnanimous
and not stoop to her level.
2:07:00 PM
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
take time to realize,
that your warmth is crashing down on me
but i can't spell it out for you,
you know it's never gonna be that simple
11:45:00 PM
DONE!
as of today,im burden-free! :DD
uhm well, almost :]
you, you got me;}
11:34:00 PM
two down, one to go.
i am proud and relieved that i have FINALLY completed 2 applications.
its about time, i know.
and yes, right up to this hour.
and so now,
its time to get myself in bed
cause i dont wanna jump outta bed again at 1025
when i have to report by 1130.
possible(even with showering and eating),
but not preferred.
(i soo hate werrkk)
anyhow, fyi
i reallyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy love my mom:}
she's like the sweetest!<333
12:46:00 AM
what's wrong with me?:[
i slept my WHOLE bloody afternoon away.
and my throat is still, :s not good.
i have this feeling im gonna have difficulty sleeping tonight but..
well, i can never be too sure.
(since my body is like, hmmm....)
tell me about feeling lethargic man..
the only times i stayed awake today for more than an hour
was when i was taking my meals.
UHM so much for getting down to doing my application thingy.
i should stop procrastinating.
5:35:00 PM
guess what day it is todayyyy:DD
12:13:00 PM
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
WELL,
overall, im super happy with my results (even though it pales in comparison with like, a kazillion others)
but by myy standards its good.
(i mean, ive never been the academic sort--like everyyone knows that)
uhm yes, im utterly disappointed over math.
just cant get over it.
will probably continue to be until i get into the course i want or something.
IF i manage to, that is..
so geog was a pleasant surprise (ditto with lit)
so strike off here and there and vvuala, im happy.
but BIG sigh cause you know...
wanting to get into a competitive course doesnt exactly help despite the decent grades i got.
(uhm though to others, my grades arent even considered decent)so so you know...
im super stressedout over this whole thingy.
HAII. may God bless me further.
i SO need it :[
*ponderponderss
haii. not to mention im also stressedout over $$ issues.
tendering-- was it another wrong move?
like who will hire me now.
not to mention im also super lazy to start the hunt again.
the job issue is soo important to me cause im in dire need of cash.
i seriously have no idea how my $$ dwindles so rapidly
despite barely even spending (as compared to how i used to--you'll be amazed)
not only is my bank like seriously pathetic,
how am i earn enough IN TIME to go overseas with mark before uni starts?
ughh. im like soo stressed over everything.
yknow?
this is the first time im managing my own finance
and apparently i suck at it SO bad..
and did i not mention i do not pay for every single thing YET im struggling like some sucker stuck in some spiderweb??
yes.
i didnt think life after As would be so problematic.
ughh.
stop stressing me out! :(
12:14:00 AM
yknow what?
i seriously miss my brown hair (despite being completely bored of it then)
: {
--bad move with the bleaching, gahh
12:11:00 AM
i just did some digging.
you'll be amazed by the things you find!
haha AND i just realized i got aa lot of weird stuff in 2006!
which will hopefully prove to be useful:]
10:18:00 PM
this blog needs an extreme makeover.
the look of it bores me,
of which it kinds of reflects the vitality of my blog ehh?--
which is like ___.
but surprise surprise,
im too darn lazy!
this blog needs some oomph!
5:15:00 PM
jun's feeling uuber moody :[
and lazy!
as much as i wanna meet mark,
i cant seem to overcome the weight of my ass that glues me to my seat!
5:12:00 PM
i NEED someone to help me sort my catastrophic confusion outtt!
even my sis has sorta given up on me. :[
yes i get im hard to please.
still, i need advice to rid my irresolution.!
UGHH.
freakk.
s-t-r-e-s-s-e-d!
12:56:00 AM
okay.
im still super stressed.
am i blowing things out of proportion?
boohoo...
HELP! :[[[
12:37:00 AM
i think april's thee month missliujun will be carefree and liberated.
well that's the intention,
so had better be the case.!
1:27:00 AM
stop and stare
you start to wonder why you're here not there
and you'd give anything to get what's fair
but fair ain't what you really need
oh, can you see what i see
1:17:00 AM
a ton of emotions,
rolled up like some pohpiah.
im still disappointed with myself.
ughh.
and now im superr stressed over a total different issue(s).
BIG SIGH.
i cant stop beating myself down
and my mind hasnt had some peace since monday.
i am
b-o-t-h-e-r-e-d.
yes,
thats the perfect word to describe me right now.
1:02:00 AM
scream, at the top of your lungs, everybody's feeling righthorrible
i think i may require a sleeping pill tonight.
my pulse is anomalistic.
this feeling reeks.
and im positive no amount of screaming is adequate to elimate this anxiety.:[[[[[[
I NEED TO FIND A WAY TO CALM MYSELF DOWN.
as much as i want to attain composure,
im sad to say its an impossible task.
"AHHHH!!!" screams junyi.
10:51:00 PM
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