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Sunday, January 29, 2006

GONG HEI FATT CHOI! :/

3:53:00 PM


hai ping mian yuan fang kai shi yin mai
bei shang yao zen me ping jing chun bai
wo de lian shang
shi zhong jia dai
yi mo qian qian de wu nai

ni yong chun yu shuo ni yao li kai
(xin bu zai)
na nan guo wu sheng man le xia lai
xiong yong chao shui
ni ting ming bai
bu shi lang er shi lei hai

zhuan shen li kai
(ni you hua shuo bu chu lai)
fen shou shuo bu chu lai
hai niao gen yu xiang ai
zhi shi yi chang yi wai
wo men de ai
(gei de ai)
chai yi yi zhi cun zai
(hui bu lai)
feng zhong chen ai
(deng dai)
jing lei ji cheng shang hai

zhuan shen li kai
(fen shou shuo bu chu lai)
fen shou shuo bu chu lai
wei lan de shan hu hai
cuo guo shun jian cang bai
dang chu bi ci
(ni wo dou)
bu gou cheng shu tan bai
(bu ying gai)
re qing bu zai
(ni de)
xiao rong mian qiang bu lai
ai shen mai shan hu hai

hui huai de sha diao ru he zhong lai
you lie hen de ai zen me zhong gai
zhi shi yi qie
jie shu tai kuai
ni shuo ni wu fa shi huai

bei ke li yin cang shen me qi dai
(deng hua er kai)
wo men ye yi jing wu xin zai cai
mian xiang hai feng
xian xian de ai
chang bu chu hai you wei lai

zhuan shen li kai
(ni you hua shuo bu chu lai)
fen shou shuo bu chu lai
hai niao gen yu xiang ai
zhi shi yi chang yi wai
wo men de ai
(gei de ai)
chai yi yi zhi cun zai
(hui bu lai)
feng zhong chen ai
(deng dai)
jing lei ji cheng shang hai

zhuan shen li kai
(fen shou shuo bu chu lai)
fen shou shuo bu chu lai
wei lan de shan hu hai
cuo guo shun jian cang bai
dang chu bi ci
(ni wo dou)
bu gou cheng shu tan bai
(bu ying gai)
re qing bu zai
(ni de)
xiao rong mian qiang bu lai
ai shen mai shan hu hai


under mark's influence?
i think i'm starting to really like this song :X

3:37:00 PM


Saturday, January 28, 2006

::LA / oohxyz - says:
if only u start living a life that's ur own. u'll find the energy again

wise words.
internalize, then put it to work i shall.

or at least i shall try.

8:08:00 PM


how many special people change
how many lives are living strange
where were you when we were getting high?
slowly walking down the hall
faster than a cannon ball
where were you while we were getting high?

some day you will find me
caught beneath the landslide
in a champagne supernova in the sky
some day you will find me
caught beneath the landslide
in a champagne supernova
a champagne supernova in the sky

8:06:00 PM


Friday, January 27, 2006


ONE!

like, finally.
the wait is nearly killing me,
and the agony has probably sucked the life outta me or something.

ANYWAY dance dance dance till friggin 730 today.
UGH. complete waste of time.
the instructor only pranced her way in at 530pm -.-
apparently she was 2 hours late.!
and think jun,
fancy having to take one and a half hours to get all the way home.
plus we had a 4 hour break cause there was no gp and geog today.
so it was PE, econs and lit. (and we ended only at 3)
what nonsense.

5 measly lessons we've been given and TA DA!
supposed to perform on wednesday AND friday.
what nonsense.
in beyond ugly cheena constumes furthermore.

well, it's YJ.
it's no wonder to it.

SATURDAY 10+AM,
HERE I COME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so it's the passing of stuff bought for mr soon,
as well as the beyond delicious pineapple tarts i bought
and already collected for mark's mom.

woot woot woot.

saturdaysaturdaysaturdaysaturdaysaturdaysaturday
saturdaysaturdaysaturdaysaturdaysaturdaysaturday
saturdaysaturdaysaturdaysaturdaysaturdaysaturday
saturdaysaturdaysaturdaysaturdaysaturdaysaturday
saturdaysaturdaysaturdaysaturdaysaturdaysaturday
saturdaysaturdaysaturdaysaturdaysaturdaysaturday
saturdaysaturdaysaturdaysaturdaysaturdaysaturday

okay, nuff.
shuts now, jun. :X

TO THE COMFY BED!
-stage left

exits.

12:18:00 AM


Thursday, January 26, 2006

TWO!
frantically trying to feel the closeness of saturday.
twotwotwotwotwo.
IHATETHIS.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE OLD MAN,
MY DAD (:

love, love, love <3

12:00:00 PM


Wednesday, January 25, 2006

i need la to slap me awake.

11:19:00 PM


LA I NEEDA BABBLE!
and drag you into the filthy world of jun's ramblings yet once again.

blurt blurt blurt in the hastiest manner,
as per normal.

UGH.

stupid stupid stupid.
okay. it was just confirmed that he's coming back by saturday morning,
BUT confinement should be AFTER field camp
which is the following following saturday,
11th FEB,
bloody CVD day,
WHICH i don't think i can skip,
therefore i can't pick him up,
andddd CVD is gonna steal my most most precious time awayy,
ANDDD my plans for the night are ruined!
CAUSE he has to book back in LATER IN THE EVENING.

nownow,
just tell me HOW DAM BLOODY F*ED UP THAT IS.
UGHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
f*ing slap me.

okayokayokay.
threethreethree.

ANTM!

10:26:00 PM


the 9 o clock show's getting to me.
and all thoughts just fleeee back to one person. haiiiii.

and he has night duty,
PLUS another confinement for not wearing his socks properly.

WHY WHY WHY.

this thought has been bugging me all day.
dates have not been told to him yet,
thus i don't even know where to start counting.

very bugged by it.

and the dance costume is beyond ugly.
and i've been putting on weight.
ughh.

life's going downhill yet once again.
i hate this.....

9:27:00 PM


happy twenty first ziyi! <3

THREE!

12:00:00 PM


Tuesday, January 24, 2006

I MISS MARK SOON KENG HOU!!!!!!
omgg. i just sooo needed to get that out of my system.
just a lilllll bit better. pfft.

11:22:00 PM


four four four four!
i'm lovin' it!

i must be crazy now
maybe i dream too much
but when i think of you
i long to feel your touch :(

11:07:00 PM


i'm not sure what's draining me,
(perhaps the overload of breaks inbetween lessons EVERYDAY, ughh!)
but i feel super drained on every school day.

did some shopping today, on my own, in town,
for about a 3-week ahead event.
(well, since it was a on-the-way-home location for me, it's almost very convenient!)
cause today's my only free day of the week!
though i ended at 430 -.-

but i would have to collect one of the items any time from today.
so.. i would need to make another trip, ALONE.
haha. well, it could get.. gratifying.
(as in the consistent solitudity)
HAHA.

i would officially declare i'm broke! roars.
though i spent only a minute amount =.=

school is making me literally drag my feet to school every morning.
cause basically,
i don't see anything that makes me look forward to, in school.
cause, obviously, there isn't anything to look forward to in the first place!

WELL,

there's no mark,
i'm not very happy with the teachers i've got,
i'm constantly having breaks after every alternate lesson,
breaks up to 2 1/2 hours i get soo drowsy from the wait,
till the point i'll start falling asleep for the subsequent lesson,
everyday ends so dam friggin late,
earliest is 3,
on one pathetic day,
the classmates, some, i totally cannot tolerate,
the school system, which i totally hate,
omg.
yj, i hate so much,
i could go on.

BUT!

i shan't.
it pisses me off thinking of it.
and it's not worth it.

SO!

i shall think of mark and prance to bed.
for tomorrow's a wednesday
AND one day closer to saturday.

it's called bliss. (:
he's whats keeping me going! roars.

life.

-spits on it

10:29:00 PM


four!
and i hate school fyi. ughh.

10:19:00 PM


Monday, January 23, 2006

five!

and my alessandra ambrosio is to die for.
okay okay. five five five five five!
roars.

11:00:00 PM


Sunday, January 22, 2006

deep in the night lying beside you,
it's so easy to feel the love that we share. (:

<3

11:54:00 PM


i'm forever blowing bubbles
pretty bubbles in the air
they fly so high
nearly reach the sky
then like my dreams they fade and die

fortune's always hiding
i've looked everywhere
i'm forever blowing bubbles
pretty bubbles in the air!

football hooligans with the boy! :D
charlie hunnam is...
(:

by the way football hooligans's our FIRST movie of the year!
haha. imagine that! and our last movie was king kong! haha. together too, of course! :D heh.
<3333

the celestial weekend with the love is over;
rapturous, it was <3

while apart,
he'll have his body augmented,
and i'll have my brain knowledge deepened.

haha.


and i'm super looking forward to his:
6-day stay for the beholden cny starting saturday!
the time of his release is still iffy but it's all good,
it's allllll good (:

-pauses and smiles.


and i'm actually starting to enjoy the daily countdown.
counting down makes me look forward to something everyday.
kinda like,
actually having a purpose in my life?
and not wasting my life away like the yester years? :o

(:

for tomorrow,
i'm gonna miss part of VS's fashion show due to family dinner.
the combined celebration of the dad's
and the sister's 21st birthday.

pe AND dance tomorrow.
i'm gonna be so drained i don't think i'll even be able to stay up for it.

well,
we'll see!

looking forward to saturday!
and the cny goodies of course! haha.


i deserve to pamper myself (:

i've been good. (:



prances awayyy~

and so we start allll overr again (:
six!


11:21:00 PM


Friday, January 20, 2006

where is he?
where is he?
where is he?
where is this beautiful guy?

COMING BACK TONIGHT TO SEE ME!!!!! :D :D :D

as 745pm will he depart,
and i'll most likely see him at 830pm!!!~~~

<33333

even if it means being all disgustingly sticky and smelly
after sentosa-ing tomorrow for class excursion,
none of it will matter no more!

woot.

finally it's 12am.
this time i waited for it! ha!

i'm tired.
OFF TO BED!

need to recoop myself.
deprived of rest and energy.
need to boost them for tomorrow! :D

junyi, OUTTT!

12:00:00 AM


Thursday, January 19, 2006

exhausted.
today's uberr tiring for me.
the 3k jog, or more like walk, in the morning around our school area! omg! haha.
THEN it was dance after school. 0.0

and after dance was the frantic search for ALARM CLOCK!
finally set out to it! was busy this whole week strangely...
and my poor fellow studying partner went along with me and
we scoured north point which obviously has nothing,
but no surprise to it. (it's sad, really..)
then all the way to amk,
which has beyond ugly and hideous looking ones.
they were REALLY ugly and hideous.
haha. omgg.
-horrors from the range they had

therefore i have concluded that,
i will only buy mark a nice alarm clock when i do find one.

i was soo exhausted by then.
then bumped into my grandparents at dhoby ghaut busstop,
while on the way home.
and my short nap was taken away from me!

was just in time for the 9 o clock show,
but i was soo tired i fell asleep.
even when mark called i was too tired to talk to him.
omg.
fell asleep till about 11 and i just bathed only!
YES!
THAT tired! boo... :(

whole bod's aching.
fweakling :(((

1 more day!

the anticipation is killing me.
i can't wait!
rrahhh~

11:27:00 PM


Wednesday, January 18, 2006

"don't blame the photographer,
blame your parents for bad DNA."

quote and unquote j. alexander
haha. true true....

10:56:00 PM


dance today was...
INTERESTING. haha.

-looks over at felicia, right? :o

well, after much contemplation, consideration and deep thought,
we've decided to dance CHINESE DANCE,
once and ONLY ONCE, for CIP thingy day,
though we look fuglyly stiff and rather odd.

haha. but it's an experience and..
we'll get to wear ugly clothes,
which will make us look EVEN UGLIER.
haha.

NO WORRIES!

we'll try to get over it. haha.

2 more days!!!

8:50:00 PM


i've cheated,
fast forward the time,
cause the temptation of shouting out:

2 more days!

can no longer be contained.

out! (pun intended :o hoho)

12:00:00 AM


Tuesday, January 17, 2006

i blog when i have nothing better to do.
well, i have nothing better to do every single day -.-

11:14:00 PM


perpetually bad mooding

dance's offically my cca. :o
finally something other than swimming.
i kinda didn't really dare to face that board today,
having this immense fear
that i'd see swimming/waterpolo beside my name :X

OH WELLS IT'S NOT IT'S GOOD (:

3 more days!
3 more days!
3 more days!
3 more days!
3 more days!
3 more days!
3 more days!

:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

and and and...
tomorrow there's only one measly lesson from 1230 till 130.
pissing.....
then dance at 3! omg.
and my muscles aren't doing too well from monday.
i'm a fweakling :/

and..
and..

ch5 now!

10:50:00 PM


Monday, January 16, 2006

i've lost my composure

4 more days.

dwindling-
weak without your touch.

and i still hold your hand in mine.
in mine when i'm asleep.

8:36:00 PM


i guess it's time i run far,
far away;
find comfort in pain,
all pleasure's the same:
it just keeps me from trouble.
hides my true shape,
like Dorian Gray.
i've heard what they say,
but i'm not here for trouble.
it's more than just words:
it's just tears and rain.

had dance today.
HAHA.
jokes.

all i can say is that i dance like an elephant.
haha. at least that's what i think...

haha. 'i'm weak' like what la always tells me.
well, laura lee...
i AM weak! :(
booo...

and it only really hit me today that,
the last time i've actually dedicatedly gone for training was in sec2. :o
and i've not trained for 2 solid years. or was it 3?
woops!

okay. joining dance,
suddenly makes me miss cheerleading like x10000
maybe i should scour for fellow pom-pom-ers
and propose for cheer!

and i wanna be an ogl for 2nd intake
and go for WAP!

DO YOU FEEL THE HEAT???

8:12:00 PM


Sunday, January 15, 2006

11:11pm!

ANYWAY i can't tie my hair now,
cause of my smart move to further cut it when like,
9/10 people told me it's better when it's long.

oh wells.
i always make mistakes more than once till i'll actually learn.
i think it averages on 3 times.

and my hair will totally frizz in school tomorrow
i'm just like, almost 100% sure of it.

UGH.
hate my hair.
a whole dam f*ed up lump of shit.

feel like bonding it again.
just look how good alessandra looks with those pretty straight hair (:

but hold it!
what's to her is her whole physic.
growls.
and i'm like 1/10th of how she looks.
THEREFORE,
it's self-explanatory.



pissing pissing pissing...

it's still 5 more days to go.
the day seems to remain rather stagnent today.

WHY?
eediot.

spit on me and roll me flat.
i feel the eyebags!
bed i'll need to head!

power off~


"mark is written all over your forehead"
quote and unquote.

11:11:00 PM


oh ya it suddenly hit me.
VS's fashion runway show, 23rd monday! :D

and i'll get to see my alessandra ambrosio
(:


























and would you deny if i say she's gorgeous? :o

and she suddenly puts
all my other photos to shame pffft.

6:11:00 PM





























i'm staring out at the sky
praying that he will walk in my life
where is the man of my dreams
i'll wait forever, how silly it seems

where is he?
where is he?
where is he?
where is this beautiful guy?

who is he?
who is he?
who is gonna take me so high?

where are you?


5:29:00 PM


5 more days!

2:02:00 AM


drenched in agony·
someone bring him back to me :[

2am every night is killing me.
my eyebags are damm bad now and sadly i'm not exaggerating.
UGHHH.
and i have to wake up early tomorrow morning, AGAIN!
and school starts monday.
pissinggg.

1:58:00 AM


reminiscence·

1:42:00 AM


there'll be no other we'll share as lovers
right from the heart from my mind to your soul
i will give it to you
my every little thing that i'm more than willing
i will give to you <3






















a little tribute to mark, of mark, mark, and moree mark!
and yes, he's secretly narcissistic. haha. <3

1:11:00 AM























taken on 050106 with courtesy of Mark S.


i <3miss military mean ;
i <3miss military menark :(

12:38:00 AM


six!

but a lonely six :(

ARGH. -.-

ANYWAY I GOT MY SHOES!
they called to say the stock arrived. woot.

it's pretty, pretty.
it ain't my fav color but it will do...

and i got my final top to seal the cny shopping deal.
so cool beans!
i can spend my weekend peacefully next weekend,
when thaa man comes back! :D

that was all for today.
not that much of an excitement.
ho wells.

life is boring.
and i would emphasize life is boring, now.


you touched my heart
you touched my soul.
you changed my life and all my goals.
and love is blind and that i knew when,
my heart was blinded by you.
i've kissed your lips and held your head.
shared your dreams and shared your bed.
i know you well, i know your smell.
i've been addicted to you.

i've seen you smile.
i've watched you sleeping for a while.
i'd be the famother of your child.
i'd spend a lifetime with you.
i know your fears and you know mine.
we've had our doubts but now we're fine,
and i love you, i swear that's true.
i cannot live without you.

<333333

12:00:00 AM


Saturday, January 14, 2006

turns out i cut my whole head instead of just the fringe.

i just trust huihui,
to the extent i'd let her do anything to my hair. (:

only her,
and she does my hair good (:

and i just cut my hair on 31st dec some more :o
like my hair's not short enough.
oh well...

boredom.

2:56:00 PM


ever since the 5th of jan,
i don't dig the army shit.

rrah.

12:28:00 AM


6 more days! (:
that was fast ((:

12:15:00 AM


Friday, January 13, 2006

friday the thirteenth.
and another in october this year. -.-

morning the stupid mrt door shit closed on me on one side.
and yes, hit my leg.
rrahh. what humour.

and i just came home.
i'm very tired.

going to cut my fringe tomorrow (:
and.......

i met dora today for a short while OPPOSITE SCHOOL!
hahaha. cool beans.

uhm........
i'm a lonesome girl.
and home is my new best friend!
(and i'm serious about it.)

solitude; like i said earlier.

till the 20th when baby comes back!
bishan will be my new home.

ughhhhhhhhh!
much misses.

7 MORE DAYS.

outtt!

10:49:00 PM


Thursday, January 12, 2006

grueling,
that's school for you.

i need a vacation, with the inclusion of one, badly.

12:35:00 AM


Wednesday, January 11, 2006

1030s are what i look forward to everyday! :D
and the occassional surprise calls in the midst of the day (:

love love love ! <3


actually it ain't that bad.
though i still go through the ritual of immense agony day after day.

rrah.
so it's extremely, tremendously bad,
and not that bad. okay,
i'm such a contradicting person ghee...

oh yeah. my favv's are jayla and kyle.
and i think jayla's a real pretty name.

just like her (:
(and it starts with a 'J' as well! hoho.)

both are real pretty i like i like ! ((:
okay.
why couldn't i have a pretty name like hers and not.......
JUN -.-

which,
gargantuan numbers of people can't pronounce it properly,
and go round with the wrong pronunciation,
thinking it's right.

ughh.

it annoys me.
piss off -.-

okay! tomorrow's 2230 here i come!
i'm tired.

ciao.

11:48:00 PM


too strong for too long, and i can't be without you baby
and i'll be waiting up until you get home,
cause i can't sleep without you baby :(((

9:40:00 PM


chemistry was crazy from the get-go
neither one of us knew why
we didn't build nothing overnight
cause a love like this takes some time

my short, momentary beatitude (:





















the moment of felicity; then
solitude.

he ain't happy at tekong, and neither am i in school.
but we made a pact to try to make the fullest out of these 11 days apart (:


well, i'm trying...

what's been bothering me is the fact that i missed the aptitude test for art
when sending him off last thursday.

what about it was that i didn't even know it was on thursday!
but then again, i thought about it.
even if i had known,
the decision of sending him off would have resulted in a great dilemma.
and if i did send him off knowing the test was on,
it'd bother me much more and things would have been wayyy worse.

therefore!
i don't even know whether it's a good or bad thing.

all i know is that i friggin hell screwed up my choices and now,
i'm gonna waste more time,
like i've not already wasted enough.

junyi junyi junyi...

you've always got your priorites wrong since forever -.-
snores.

and now, cca is giving me a headache as well.
swimming is a cinch to get in to as they would gladly take me in.
but hell no, to swimming.
i think i've had more than enough of it.

THEREFORE!
i want a sports cca but i feel i have no flair,
for any of them sports.

so..
i'm getting ticked off by it all.

like i said...
i'm trying to make the best of these 11 days.
but it's pretty hard when nothing seems to be going your way.

and having no mark to ramble on to
has resulted in me rambling on to myself on this dam white screen.
i can't take it much longer.

are my eyebags starting to take further effect?
cause i think so -.-

i have no choice but to just attempt to make these 11 days flyyy past me,
get a bliss of about 1 day,
and look forward to gong xi gong xi gong xi ni season.

roars.

someone please save me rrahhhh~

*pining

8:55:00 PM


Monday, January 09, 2006

20 more hours!

12:45:00 AM


IT'S MONDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
how rare people jump at the thought of monday (:

12:00:00 AM


Sunday, January 08, 2006

'cause baby i could never make it on my own

it always gets easier as the days go by.
it has already been 3 days but it felt wayy longer.

but once he's back,
i don't think i can let him go again.

rrah.

this is pissin' me off cause army's messin' with my feelings.
like, taking him away,
then giving him back to me.
hmmmm...

MAKE UP YOUR MIND! -.-
growls.

haha. and your choice is to leave him here with me!
okay. i'm too sticky it's disgusting.
but that's just me okay?
i'm disgusting -.-

cause i think he seems to be doing pretty fine over there
though he does look forward to booking outs.

no matters.
i'm just blabbering.

shuts. :X

11:49:00 PM


and everything i have in this world
and all that i'll ever be
it could all fall down around me
just as long as i have you right here by me

shopping today!
only intended for cny clothes.
but i ended up just picking out for casual day wears as well.

i was shocked myself i could find soooo many things out in the stores,
despite the sales going on..

yes, i'm never good with sales cause i usually can't find shit.
but then again only topshop and zara had sale. hmm.

ANYWAY....

started at topshop and did 2 skirts, 1 top and an accessory.
then it let to another top at esprit plus some socks,
dinner,
then another top from zara
and some jacket shit from m)phosis.

hmm.
it was good.
it really took my mind off of everything.

shopping really does wonders.
i love it (:

and linwei made me realise that i bought aaa lot of purple.
long skirt's purple, 2 of the tops as well, the jacket
AND the socks is aaa bit purple as well.
haha. woops!

and i've purple and white heels as well that are not worn yet,
cause my mom forced me to keep it for cny :o

and baby called me 3 times today (: it's really a happy thing. (:
cause it really made me happy. (:
i mean plus the shopping and all...
it's good,
it's good.............

anyway time flewww past today.
and tomorrow's NOT gonna be a mundane monday cause.....

MARK'S BOOKING OUT TOMORROW!!!! :DDDD
-jumps up and down-

but freak like only at 845pm??
cause he's like the last, if i'm not wrong, company.
so they book in late and book out, late.
rrah.

but what matters is that i'll be seeing him tomorrow.
about 930pm at pasir ris here i come! :D

therefore even school seems like a joy.
rrah. though lessons start tomorrow!

pffft.

it feels like saturday today though..
okay, random.
okay okay.

930 930 930 930 930 930 930 930 930 930 930..........

-chants-

10:57:00 PM


it's a complicated web,
that you weave inside my head

i'm hungry.
and my eyes are starting to hurt.
therefore it's time for bed.

about at least 30 more hours to go till i can see my *ahhem!
that's a whole day,
and a little more.

i'm trying to hang in there~
rrahh.

2:40:00 AM


it's not supposed to feel this way.
i need you,
i need you,
more and more each day.
it's not supposed to hurt this way.
i need you,
i need you,
i need you.
tell me,
why?

1:14:00 AM


i wanted
i wanted you to stay
cause i needed i need to hear you say that i love you
i have loved you all along
and i forgive you for being away for far too long
so keep breathing
cause i'm not leaving you anymore
believe it
hold on to me and never let me go

i'm sad. :(

out with la today.
bought my mr soon a phone batt,
so he can call me and on his phone more!

it was certainly funny and fun trying to find his phone model.
shan't elaborate haha.

then after,
i bought my 2006book from bookbinders(:
and i think it's pretty. (:

la, yes, my influential impulsive buyer. :X

and a shockingly cheap adidas bag.
haha.

here they are!
check out the size difference.






















what's funny is that the book almost costs as much as the bag.
yes, just 9 bucks of a difference. HAHA.

and when my shoe comes in,
they'll call.

can't wait. (:

la saved me quite a bit from my disturbed mind.
but now that i'm alone at home,
it's back to haunt me. :(

2006 's gonna be a very lonely and unhappy year for me.

rrah.

i hate 2006.
KILL YOU! pfffffffft!

i'm still sucha kid.
oh wells. i joined the snake year and i'm easily influenced.

okay yes, i'm just pushing the blame.

rrahh!

kick me, bwah.

BABY YOU COME BACK YOU COME BACK NOW!!!!!!!
>.<

f*ing BMT.
grrr.

and days are feeling like years
and every day's without you
now i cry
just a little too much
when i think of your touch
and everything about you
i feel cold
i'm in the dark
when our souls are apart

12:30:00 AM


Saturday, January 07, 2006

and it may take some time to
patch me up inside
but i can't take it so i
run away and hide

i can't take it. :(

even during the supposed 'most fun part of orientation',
my mind was still furiously revolving around him.

but linwei managed to steal my heart and mind
for several minutes,
several times.

no idea why but didn't think much of it at all.
it honestly felt pretty much of a bore to me.
though zilch others had the same sentiments.

HMMM.
was it really that fun???

no booze and all..
no mark and all......................

fact is, i only truely enjoy dancing with mark.
okay, i just found my answer.
rrah.

arghhhh.

i neeed monday night to come.

-

i can’t take another day without you
'cause baby i could never make it on my own
i've been waiting so long just to hold you
and to be back in your arms where i belong


12:31:00 PM


Thursday, January 05, 2006






















my baldie baby (:
missing him like crazy.....


he's the cutest isn't he?
((((((((((:

no questions,
straight answer (:


rrah.

super itchy,
superr itchy for him.


scratches for him-

8:50:00 PM























i love you
i have loved you all along
and i miss you
been far away for far too long
i keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go
stop breathing if i don't see you anymore

i miss him :(
he's where men are treated like dogs :(

i'm lost, lonely and alone.
i want him and i want him bad :(

dad asked why i look sad.
that's cause i am :((


surprisingly i saw 3 sn girls,
all red badge,
all sending their boyfriends off as well.

'cept i was the only idiot alone.
all them 3 had their boyfriends parents to accompany them :(

alone,
not just amongst the 3 of them,
but in the whole troop. 0.0

therefore during the whole little tour,
i was all alone cause we were seperated!

almost immediately when we hit the islands of tekong :(((

2 solid hours, at least.
we only got reunited for lunch at 2++
and reached tekong about 12.

said my final goodbyes at 313pm when i had to go.

only reached home at 5 with a severe headache.

well,
to be honest,
i was really tempted to stay in tekong
and hide myself somewhere really descreet.

okay,
it was just a thought.

i was desperate.


counting down to monday night.
he'll be booking out by about 645pm (: ,
if i remembered correctly.
and i'm waiting super impatiently.

so right now,
"i need all my girls to keep him off my mind"
and it's la this saturday for some head rocking,
heart stopping, no pigging out fun (:

rrahh.

impatiently waiting for his call :/

right now that's all my mind revolves around.
mark soon baby i miss youuuuu :((((

rrrahhh.

okay.
i'm blabbering too darn much.

shuts. :X


8:15:00 PM























the long dreaded journey on the train.

8:08:00 PM


Wednesday, January 04, 2006

who stole the soul from the sun,
in a world come undone at the seams?
let there be love.

why?

7:40:00 PM


Tuesday, January 03, 2006

today
first day of school

tomorrow
shaving of the boys head,

day after
day of enlistment.

the day after after
alone. :(

AH!
pon pon pon,
till the boy's gone :(
WO BU YAO!
>.<

i'm sucha whiney kid,
slap me.

11:59:00 PM


Monday, January 02, 2006

nothing goes to plan
it's all the game of chance they saying wonderland
there's magic in the air
a tragic love affair that i don't understand


10:17:00 PM


say hello to 2006.
2005,
the 3 things i'm ever so greatful for.
(and being majorly brief)

1. Mark
2. Laura
3. Mom

i'm not gonna elaborate on the details on why these 3.
cause...
whatever for, right.

OKAY!

school's starting tomorrow.
i'm super not ready.
have been playing so much so that i didn't leave time
to buy my school shoes, bag AND pencil box.
slap me.

bad bad way to start school.

two o o six seems like a start on the wrong foot.
things are not that smooth,
yet not that rough.

so basically i ain't too happy about life right now.
so i would love to think it starts bad,
and ends well.

hopefully.

though i've been out like, everyday,
but one day, during this whole hols,
the fun seems to be never enough.

it's like, i'm soo dreading school,
maybe also cause i dislike YJ pretty much.

next is like,
YJ was only nice when i had mark and all always with me.
but now he's graduated and like,
enlisting on thursday :(

yes,
i'm sad. :(

but thank God for hari raya. (:

i'll soo miss the morning train rides with him.
and the waiting,
and going home with him.

i want it back,
and i want it bad :(

i'm lil miss dependent.
argh.

basically i wish i could turn back time and start 2005 from july,
all over.

feeling darn sick.
haven't been home much at all,
perhaps why.

secondly,
all the late nights aren't doing me good at all.

basically feeling majorly disoriented.

i shall hit the couch and oc away,
eating baileys cake and godiva, meiji and aussie chocolates.

depressed i certainly am :(

and i miss laura.
everytime i'm down, she never fails to make me feel better.
she's my antidote (:
and i love pouring my nonsensical rants and vents
and depressing moments at her.

apologies
but like i said!

i'm lil miss dependent!

rrah~

8:03:00 PM