Thursday, August 30, 2007
my prelim grades stink worse than anybodys smelly smelly socks.:[[youu think yourss is baddd?i assure you im of the lower echelon.i am greatly piqued:[-- ive reached the stage whereby i know i really cant catch up.this, mark pointed out, is the 'too late stage'.ohwellssss.
8:56:00 PM
the way you stole my attention was flat out burglaryAW MANN!!
school tmr.! what a turn offf.
ehh....life seems different.
it feeeeeeeeeels different.
why?
*demands an unanswerable question
10:17:00 PM
Saturday, August 25, 2007
have i not mentioned i reallyy love my friends?:))no point mentioningcause you know who you are:]]
11:56:00 PM
friends with money
it was reallyy nice seeing them again:)))
--:) i think is by far one of the best weeks ive hadsince a long long time.long being, how far back my mind can recall.-till monday i'll be free from school:)then its the sept hols,study breakand from 15nov onwards:))and so meanwhile, i tolerate haa.its so strange how 2 measly days can make me feel likeim on an endless holiday~-my friends keep moving on without me, i realise..first my batch, then the dragon batch.and now im 2 years behind omg.im supposed to be in my 2nd year of uni life.oh well..strange but im actually quite glad my life took the route it did,despite all my complains:)okay,enough about that.-and why do people always say somewhere along the lines of'i saw someone who looked like you' ?do i look mediocre or what.okay that was a rhethorical question so please dont answer to that.ahhh.and btw,retribution traces people down FAST (and furiously).very soon, im gonna have a serious case of speech disorder.that will probably be my affirmative comeuppance.:lso if ever my english starts going rottenand deteriorates beyond the tolerable level,
we'll all know where its coming from :S--take a look at my girlfriendshe's the only one i got ba ba da danot much of a girlfriendi never seem to get a lot ba ba da da, ba ba da da!~
10:42:00 PM
Thursday, August 23, 2007
i look forward to tomorrow:)
YAY!!!:D
btw i miss my friends.
those in singapore AND abroad:[
12:47:00 PM
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
to one and all:
please visit http://www.froufrou-mansion.com/ :)thank you.it'll be greatly appreciated:))
6:42:00 PM
since i need to scare myself, SO! itsexactly 10 WEEKS, today inclusive,and EXACTLY 70 miserable DAYS to As, from today.and thats if i counted correctly.SO! i should be really really scared,especially when im gonna get more or less straight Us for prelims,and i aint exaggerating..
(though i wish i were/could)and mark made things better by sayingin YJ if you get Us in general for prelims and continuously fail,history has proven itself that students that fall into that category simplyWONT do well.they just dont.consolations consolations im sure.so now my only resort is to tell myselfim not that typical student and that.....i'll prove history WRONG!i mean, history was never to my taste anyhow.and i do mean never.so yeah.majorcaseofselfdelusionomgg.NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE IF YOU SET YOUR MIND TO IT!my new motto.may all that i believe (that is positive) become a self-fulfilling prophecy,be it apparently quixotic, or not!WOOSHA!
3:28:00 PM
 my miss perfect:)
mann i slept all the way and just woke up. why does econs have to be the last paper cause i dont feel/see a need to study, at all. but like i told fel, i'll just panic the night before, as usual...haa
i feel like meeting mark and basically roll my day away as if im some dough. :((
and I WISH..... from THIS friday onwards, everyday i'll wake up, feeling like studying REAL HARD! :)) (with NO distractions and drifting and daydreaming and drifting and stoning and drifting...)
2:10:00 PM
making new dicoveries with your phone is hellva fun! HAHA.jose and i were ludicrously amazed at our discovery thatwe got soo hyped up,i swear it was pure embarrassment. HAHA.nonetheless, FUN.with indulging in major narcism- mainly her, as usual haha.and living (or attempting to live) the taitai life we've both desired since wayyy backk then. haa.pity she's going back this week.albeit coming back in september, i doubt i'll have the time to meet her.it'll be, burying my head in books season basically..and todays weather's a bummer.rainy days make you feel like sleeping.then again,
sunny days make you feel like playing- so it'll be...
pity pity if youre home, missing out.
UGH.
perceptions, to be changed, a must.
--
im watching the ellen show now and she's funnyyyy.
especially when i watch it with zi omgg. hilariouss.
hmmm... and somehow i dont seem to hear from oprah anymore, WHY.
wondering whether i should nap away.
since i cant tan. :O
9:26:00 AM
http://youtube.com/watch?v=En0A8KGMgq8&mode=related&search=aww this is dam cute!:))what a lucky mom!i wish i could be a lucky mom in the future too!:))
9:28:00 PM
flashback
 
and those days where camera phones we possessed
had like 0.1 pixels or something haa. and i realised i barely rarely practically never took photos with dora jq etc. during sn days. i think it was mainly because the group wasnt large enough for my head to appear the size of half a one cent coin. -- all day long ive been feeling lethargic. it doesnt feel as if there are papers tomorrow, not to mention the week. what difference does it make, anyhow? besides, study or not, my grades will be identical- only difference would be whether it'll be a high or low grade. ugh. futile studying efforts. gross. since when did my stupidity get this prevalent? hold up. i think im supposed to meet jose on tuesday! has she forgotten?:o
*gasps
 if it makes you happy
it can't be that bad
if it makes you happy
then why the hell are you so sad
4:50:00 PM
Saturday, August 18, 2007
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
first 2 days into the prelims and its no good, after no good.or does disastrous fit the description better?worst of all, ive been suffering from speech disorder the past few days which has resulted in me, having grave difficulty carving out sentences.i think i produced awkward sentences in my essay cause i was constantly having difficulties completeing sentences.hmmm. disgressing,tmr is someones BIG DAY!:))AND the day after is my MOM's BIG (and old) DAY!:))))and jiaYU's on monday!!~smack in the middle of prelims.but who cares?im still celebrating~
2:48:00 PM
mark is in refusal to meet me in order for meto glue my butt at home and STUDY.but apparently to no avail.ive just wasted my whole morning watching tvthen out until about 3pm.he perceives that by not meeting me,there'll be a higher chance i get my ass down to workrather than us, out.true, admittedly.. but then again..i do often prove him wrong.i find myself subconsciously searching for alternativessuch as online tv sleep or yes,the most time consuming of them all- talking to my sis.haha*looks over at fel.:))i think i spend half my time at home speaking to her or something.nonetheless, she's just left the building and said i canfinally settle down for work.but NO. im online.maybe if i think of la, jiang, ree, trish in particular,with their deadly eyes glarring at me,i might just be frightened/feel guilty. HUR.i ate too much.now i feel so uncomfortable cause i cant breathe properly.but i feel like eating chocolate,and drinking green teaa.:))
4:10:00 PM
im sad to say, mainly because of geog,im about 30% ready for As.isnt that such a worrying thought?mark was the one who asked me that questionand dawned on me, how screwed i am-for not just prelims, but As as well.yet i have the cheek to want to watch rushhour3 tonight,and tan for 1 1/2 hours on wednesday and today.shame on you jun, shame on me...but i still cant believe that zi says she cant see any diff(skin color) eck. the least, i see it-some form of consolation eh.haa.
4:52:00 PM
Thursday, August 09, 2007
eh this years's NDP is dam hilarious la.i couldnt stop laughing omggg.but it got boring, and so im here.haha. digressing,my mom wants to go all the way to dempsey area just for dessert.she's maddd apparently haa.can it please be midnovember??cause i wanna simply roll my days away~okay.tomorrow, please shine for me!cause sunshine here i come!!
7:41:00 PM
Wednesday, August 08, 2007
ree says:
Jun, you have failed all your life because you have NEVER tried hard enough
ree says:
even though you are sitting down and looking at your notes, but your mind was never entirely set on doing wel
ree says:
because you never believed you could do itthat's ree shedding her light on me. (she knows me too well)tskk. such STRONG words--"NEVER" hahaa.ehh... i suddenly see....
a little beam of light shinning through......im SURE being a failure cant possibly last THROUGHOUT right?right right right?oh someone pleasee assure me.cause my hope has been flickering just cause...nothing has yet been able to prove me otherwise.BWA.
12:14:00 AM
seeing nicole simply perks me up!~niccole, nicole, either way, both do.just like how felicias do too! fel huang, williams haha.today was a happy but unproductive day haha.:)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))may tomorrow be a happy AND productive day PLEASE!!!i have yet to have one since like, forever maybe?hope the sun hits my pool by 10amor i'll be a very angry girl tomorrow.traalaalaaa~im sorry, i did not mean to hurt my little girl
it's beyond me, i cannot carry the weight of the heavy worldso goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight.
11:34:00 PM
what eh the fat woman in desp housewives told susanmade hell sense and now i start to wonder,is this exact same senario applied to my very own life as well?has it turned out the way it has,as a result of what she said?drama mama life.when the dust has finally settled, you kick it up again.we find our lives particularly similar to what we watch on televisions.they're exaggerations of our life, so naturally.OR do we we watch shows we aspire our life to resemble?
or do we get influenced by what we watch?or do we simply mould our lives into what we are exposed to from those shows?cause i find striking resemblence of my situations/attitudes/actions/etcin susan gabrielle and lynette.and my mind's wayy too exhausted to really figure..and yes,we all want attention in our lives, esp after we're tied down.but we never cross the line-- we disallow ourselves to do so..;or at least we try to..and may i saythe dust shall finally settle..until the next storm then i shall once speak of which again.GOODNIGHT.
12:39:00 AM
so how did time pass so quickly?last i knew, it was only seven thirty!im tied down by boredom.ugh
9:38:00 PM
after much deliberation,ive come to the conclusion that i should re-tan myself.this sick yellow color pales me.such coincidence doesnt happen often butthe coming week is just perfect:)now all that's left variable is the weather.with national day coming up as well,hopefully the skies wont fail us:)oh. but tanning makes me sleepy.and ive recently stuffed my little face up abundantly.SO hopefully no one recognises me while i attempt to sleep,exposing my blubs and eyebags in the process.and may the guards SHOO!and i suddenly wish the whole pool belonged to me...wish away!~would have bled to make you happy
you didn't need to treat me that way
9:22:00 PM
to what ive previously said, i scrape.
admittedly, the wedding dinner was,
to my surprise, far from what i had expected it to be.
i revelled in the most scrumptious, succulent, divine course.
yes, you would expect that what preceeded my expectations
were very much directed at more so the food than anything else.
additionally, i was glad to witness the matrimony,
of which my father shamefully slept half the time.
despite it being rather preachy, or what my mom said to be
an over charismatic pastor, it was lovely to witness the union
between two souls.
:)
although the arrangement of the tables were quite a mess i would say,
and the live band being a tad bit too loud,
conrad did a good job.
i applaud.
*claps!
but having not attend one in the longest time,
i failed to remember it lasts hell long.
stretched from as early as 5+pm till a good 11+pm.
i got home, washed up,
and completely knocked out.
*poof
7:39:00 PM
you, fucking suck.suck fucking balls.UGH.
12:14:00 AM
Thursday, August 02, 2007
btw i love you,la and jose:))
11:46:00 PM
its already august!!!which means, OH MY GOD.
11:45:00 PM
my decision to not attend school tomorrow has
indubitably caused me to waste precious time away,
but whats new.
and i only just recalled that saturday i have a wedding
to attend to, and my oh my.
its either i skip ssp, or miss the tea ceremony.
but hey, i honestly couldnt care less about my cousin's life seriously.
i rather laze around with mark then
watch my cousin stride around in her wedding gown.
big sigh.
cause plans have been ruined and im most displeased.
so whats gonna happen to my saturday night and
perfect stranger?
ugh. annoying.
im sadly not stuck in a quagmire,
as i do not even have a choice.
the wedding dinner has to be attended,
and i have no say in otherwise.
so looks like im going to have to miss tuition once again.
the need to simply give up my invaluable saturday
is painting my sky blue.
roar.
perculiar it may seem to be
but i would rather study, indeed most appalling.
(i mean, would someone like me give up good food for studying?)
but the weightage of my main reason veers towards
the fact that i simply care little about my cousins, in general.
the closeness of my relationships with my cousins
dissipitated long ago, hence the treatment.
despite my vehement desire to escape the wedding,
my efforts will nonetheless be ineffectual.
dammit.
11:05:00 PM
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