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Tuesday, February 28, 2006

results tomorrow!

AO chinese!
and for the dearest,
his As!!! 0.0

very worrying! :S

i think i might have to take up chinese B.
i'm serious.
till tomorrow! OUT!

10:27:00 PM


Monday, February 27, 2006

tomorrow 1145am is when the boy finally returns!
and i only end at 430.
oh wells...

10:28:00 PM


Sunday, February 26, 2006

i'm wide awake
and i can see the perfect sky is torn

to finally wake up and breathe and feel, in the absence,
and the presence of another-
has certainly made me think,
and reflect,
ponder,
and realise.

the ones who care wouldn't just exclaim.

tripped into dilemma,
falling into phantasm.

11:49:00 PM






























pictures from yesterday!

the makeup was so.... uhm........... well......
it was hard to tell i was i!
till the point... dora had a super hard time finding me! haha.
ANYWAY, picture's include................................

pretty pretty prettyy fredaaa(:
well missed xiaopok and jacq,
and finally,
the more favoured yjcians!
felicia, elise AND nicole! haha :b

went out with la after! (:
we were both super shacked.
and.........

SHE GOT IN SHE GOT IN SHE GOT IN!!!!!! :DD
for ac hockey selections!!
no big surprises here for me,
but she sure is a gleemingly happy girl (:
and i'm superr happy for her as well! :D

went home early early at 10 plus pm,
and slept immediately, allllll the way till 12 plus this afternoon!
a total of FOURTEEN hours of sleep!
yes, holy mama!
i sure am piggish! :X

and results results!!
CJ WON! :D
zero surprises for me cause,
i was expecting them and banking on them to win!
furthermore... half of them were previously from sn! haha. (:

there were SUPER aaaalot of sn girls there.
like, more than 10 were ex-sns!
majority were previously from cheerleading as well! haha.
HMM....

SA got third! woot! :D
super lovee the cheongsam and heels part (:

and just ever so coincidentally,
freda's from CJ,
and jacq and xiaopok are from SA (:

la la laaaaa~

i'm super bored!
and NO dance for the WHOLE of next week! :D

and MR SOON is coming back in TWO days time! :D
oh love love!!~~~
oh the love............ ((((:

6:00:00 PM


Friday, February 24, 2006

and so i left school at 12pm this afternoon (:
took early leave to go home and SLEEP!
i told you, i am super deprived of it.

danceworks is tomorrow.
we made aaaalot of amendments up till today!
omg. yes, 'holy mama' is certainly the word of expression.

wanna go sleep soon!
gotta be there by eight am tomorrow.
and we're only starting at one. jeez.

i won't be hearing from mark for two nights!
yike! okokok. i gotta go prepare my stuff for tomorrow.

OUT!

10:02:00 PM


Thursday, February 23, 2006

SEVEN DAYS!

cause A level results are out next friday,
he'll be coming on THURSDAY! :DDD

ooooOOooo....
i'll FINALLY get the feel of him in school again.
i miss it dearly.
super excited about it! :D
but he's super dreading it though... :X

i super feel like skipping school tomorrow
(it has become an addiction)
BUT because there's math.....
i'm coming :/

i secretly love math now -sniggers-

DANCE MONDAY!
DANCE TUESDAY!
DANCE WEDNESDAY!
DANCE TODAY!
DANCE TOMORROW!

COMPETITION SATURDAY!

holy mama.
i'm going crazy.
i'm SUPERR shacked!
and we're sooo gonna humiliate ourselves.

CARE NO MORE!
cause all i want to do is sleep sleep sleep!
i feel uberr deprived of it -.-
my dark eye rings are getting
darker....
AND darker!!!!! :S

look,
if you had one shot,
one opportunity,
to seize everything you ever wanted.
one moment,
would you capture it,
or just let it slip?

10:25:00 PM


Wednesday, February 22, 2006

baby if i act like that, that guy will call me back
what a paparazzi girl, i don't wanna be a stupid girl.

8days (thankfully,NOT) every week!

12:15:00 AM


Tuesday, February 21, 2006

i dig the nightly calls from mr soon ranging from 9pm-10pm (:

haha. and i think i secretly enjoy dance.!
i get super hyper and all during dance. :o
and what's important is that......
IT MAKES ME LOOSE THOSE DISGUSTING CALORIES I GORGE ON IN SCHOOL!
yuck! those are what makes my fats giggle when i bounce D:<

wednesday expresso tomorrow!
and our dance itself is still not exactly done with the choreographing.
imagine that! and danceworks is on saturday...
it thus really makes you wonder why YJ doesn't really win anything -.-

hoho.

it's almost 12 and i'm still online.
-slaps myself

I AM SUPPOSED TO BE SLEEPING!
i've past MY BEDTIME.

ARGHHH.
i'd be lying to myself if i said i'm okay with mark being away and all...
I SHALL HOLD MYSELF BACK FROM SAYING THIS NO MORE...

NINE DAYS AND COUNTING!
cause i'm secretly dying.... -.-

11:45:00 PM


and so i didn't attend school today.
not by choice cause mommy didn't wake me up.
last night she said i looked real pale and my eyebags were SUPER bad.

and so i slept at 11+ and woke up 12+pm today!
the sleep was certainly good.
but i don't think it'll last till saturday :/
have to see the doc at 230pm then i'm off to school for dance.

i shall sleep by about 11+ latest everynight,
preferably 10.
well, at least i will try.

for now, OUT i go.
and TEN more days till i get to see mark :[

ROAR.

2:16:00 PM


Monday, February 20, 2006

fu qi xiang?

do we possess that? (: ho ho cause i hope so!!~ hahaha. ((:

and... i don't wanna go school tomorrow! :(
econs test and overdue lit homework still not done.
plus i don't feel too good..
physically :/

but a must,
is to be in school for dance tomorrow. ughh.
point is... i just wanna sleep, get my rest,
and not attend lessons. -.- tired -.-

10:28:00 PM


you're the substance of my dreams, epitomy of men.
the only one i truly call mine <3

12:03:00 AM


Sunday, February 19, 2006























but you always find a way to keep me right here waiting
you always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
and if you chose to walk away i'd still be right here waiting
searching for the things to say,to keep you right here waiting.

right here waiting (:


and so he skoots off to tekong yet once again.
but no worries...

by march all this bmt bullshit will be over (:

and.......
we made a conclusion.

we look alike (:

haha.
in this photo, and in another older one.
what do yall think? :B


-mumbles and grumbles-

DANCE TOMORROW,
DANCE TUESDAY,
ECONS TEST TUESDAY,
DANCE WEDNESDAY.
DANCEWORKS SATURDAY!

oh this is SOOo gonna drain my balls -.-

oh and yes!
just now while on the train with the beloved to good ol' pasir ris,
i SPOTTED JAS ON THE TRAIN! -sniggers-
her picture, on the RP (Republic Polytechnic) ad! ha ha ha ha ha :b

EH! SAD! the boy won't be out this weekend! :[
but i think this weeks super hectic schedule will fly the week by.
(well, at least that's what i'm hoping.)
thing is, not too sure when he'll be out.
following weekEND?????

EEEEK!

and he won't be able to come down to marina,
for danceworks come saturday! :[
boo boo... :(((
but fret not!
cause i dance like the ugliest, and it will be total humiliation.
BUT STILL!!! :[ i mean...
i think all that's ugly of me, mark has already seen. haha.
meaning??

TWO THUMBS DOWN TO ARMY! >.<

10:45:00 PM


Friday, February 17, 2006

I want to get you out of here and
into a room and make you sweat
until you forget everything.

Love, Your Body.

the cutest phrase of the nikewomen's ad i found in female [:

anyway, hooray to math test CAUSE
i've like already got like 4538725018753 MISTAKES??? :\
well done! :\ to pass, is all i'm asking for!

okay! 945 will he book out tomorrow MORNING :D
so it's 1030am at pasir ris!

okay okay.
need my rest.
my dark eye circles are getting REALLY dark. :[

anyway...
this calls for change of plans!
no ac tomorrow. (sorry la!)
and maybe he'll meet his friends tomorrow night.
thus and therefore if so, i'll hop on over to la's party tomorrow [:

my throat is still bad.
and many are mocking it.
it's kinda annoying really,
cause it's already a pain in the neckthroat to speak.
-.-

8:39:00 PM


friday is FINALLY here! (:
(which means math test is here too,
WHICH i'm STILL soooooo NOT READY FOR!!!#$(!(&@*)

ONE more day till Mr Soon gets back! :D
yess, i jump in delight (:

though today's the only THIRD day i've not seen him.
cool beans. AND BMT's ending SOON!!!
heh heh hehhhh. [:

i'm tired.
i need a good rest for tomorrow's math test (:
i hope i don't fail!

-crosses fingers-

12:04:00 AM


Thursday, February 16, 2006






















you're my past,
my future,
my all,
my everything.
my six in the morning when the clock rings,
and i open up my eyes to a new day.
my laughs,
my frowns.
my ups,
my downs.
it's a feeling that you get,
when you know that something's true,
when i think of love,
i think of you.

oh, mere words can't explain the love i have inside.
it's more than just a physical thing, i know.
it's something like a spiritual connection.
i feel it in my soul heart and mind.

10:26:00 PM


i guess it's time i run far,
far away.
find comfort in pain.
all pleasure's the same
it just keeps me from trouble.
hides my true shape,
like dorian gray.
i've heard what they say,
but i'm not here for trouble.
it's more than just words
it's just tears and rain.

i'm apparently in love with this song. (:

9:27:00 PM


every boy's the same
since i been in the seventh grade
they been trying to get with me
trying to ha ha-ha, ha ha-ha
they always got a plan
to be my one and only man
want to hold me with their hands
want to ha ha-ha, ha ha-ha
i keep turning them down
but, they always come around
asking me to go around
that's not the way it's going down

'cause they only want
only want my ha ha-ha, ha ha-ha
only want what they want
but, nah ah-ah
nah ah-ah

the boy's only coming back on saturday :/
he's being confined on friday :(
cause he missed his ippt test on tuesday HMM.

oh wells.
so i think i've decided to visit la this saturday,
from about 930-11am (funorama) ,
cause that's her free time.
(linwei, what time will you be going down?)
then i'll hop off and pick up mark or something?
he said afternoon he'd be back.
well, not sure if it's tentative news or is it comfirmed.
oh wells..

math test tomorrow.
i'm soo not prepared.
but i've been online ever since i've been back home.

HMM.
all i've planned to do,
is memorise the stupid formulaes,
come tomorrow morning, on the trusty train.
yeah,
that's where i do all my memorising haha.
OR sleeping. hahaha.

tomorrow's FINALLY friday.
and i end 130pm.
YAY! :D

but the sad news is??
i'm a lonely lonesome girl who is..........
GONNA SPEND THIS EARLY DAY.....
ALL ALONE.

maybe i should use this time to study econs? (:
cause my every weekend =
time devoted to everything else BUT studying.

i mean...
guess who's back, back again.
mark is back, tell a friend.
guess who's back,
guess who's back,
guess who's back.

HAHA.
okay LAME! ROARRRR.

8:50:00 PM


should i not go to school today or tomorrow?
go school on both, or not at all?

it's this throat thing,
it's kinda killing me...

and math test on friday!
silly me is afraid of failing it :[

AND I'VE NOT BEEN DOING ANY WORK!
-gasps

this week, inclusive of the most recent weekend,
has been play time for me :X

lit homework given last tuesday
has not even been attempted.
well done jun,
you're gonna get kicked out of yj come end of the year.

*piang! (haha)

NO! (looks shocked and terrified and scatters offff)

make it drop honey,
make it pop honey.
whip whop
tick tock to the clock for me
don't stop doin' that.
and shawty know i mean,
what i say so she won't stop doin' that.
plus i heard if you can dance,
you can bump.
well dance,
time is up,
let's go,
let's go.
we can get it in,
we can get some friends,
do it like the ying yang twins.

12:57:00 AM


Wednesday, February 15, 2006























la (:

love, to her.

my throat has gotten soo bad that i can barely speak.
even the simple necessity
of swallowing your saliva down your throat,
hurts.

speak, i can barely.

sexay,
is how i sound.
HAHA.

okay.
i'm glad i passed my first test of the year.
a sure motivation;
marks that are substantial to keep me going,
AND marks that are not too high,
thus not landing me complacent(:

first geog physical test to pass!
okay, how bout second. :O

dance is...
needs major polishing up that's for sure.. haha.
i look like a retarded kid
flagging thy limbs in all possible directions.
roars.
AND WEDNESDAY EXPRESSO NEXT WEDNESDAY!
another day of pure humiliation.
i think i'm getting used to it. :o

i'm super friendless come friday.
i need companionship. :/

AND I'M TIRED! :(

today's supposed to be our seventh.
OH WELL.

i mean..
it IS our seventh.
oh golly. i speak as if we're no longer together.

okay okay.
friends i need! date me people!
i want i need, i need i want.

*BIG SIGHHH

11:49:00 PM


i'm so hollow baby,
i'm so hollow.
i'm so,
i'm so,
i'm so hollow...

mom's chasing me to bed cause i'm sick.
so OFF i go! and awake to another dreaded day of...
SCHOOL IN YJC!

-.-

12:34:00 AM


Tuesday, February 14, 2006

i'm not too sure.

this sick ongoing oppressiveness,
is driving me to the point,
i just totally feel like giving up.

i'm hapless.

seriously.
if you lean your ear over,
you'll learn to sympathize with me.

it's inevitable.
trust me on this.
you might even end up speechless.

my life is filled with nothing but misfortunes.
i just hope in time, the tables will turn.
cause i believe life, is ultimately fair.

even the past 18 years of my life,
i don't think this day has ever reached this pathetic extent.
it's sad, really..

and my sickness,
has gotten from normal (just flu), to null,
to wayy bad.
and bad it lands on this very "special" day.
but it's ending soon.
and i'm soo glad for that.

OKAY!
what can i say?

i'm anorexic.
i'm malnourished, in terms of love.

i'd like to think materialism are just trival matters.
but matter of fact?
as down-to-earth in our society you may be,
all these materialistic matters are not trival,
but instead,
essential.
it's a necessity, (well, at least to me)
cause this gesture is in fact,
another way of portraying your affection for the significant other.

it works both ways.

i'm speaking in brief.
just abbreviating a whole part of how i'm feeling and thoughts right now..

cause roar and ROAR to my life.
seriously?

it really

s u c k s.

11:48:00 PM


who are you now
are you still the same or did you change somehow
what do you do
at this very moment when i think of you
and when i'm looking back
how we were young and stupid
do you remember that

utter disappointment.

phewf!
a week of not blogging.
i got sick of it cause life was a simple mundane cycle.

well,
today is valentine's day.

AND??
i'm NOT in school.

-sniggers-

it's been long.
and i deserve a break from the nightmarish clutches of YJC.

BUT HEY!
i WAS sick yesterday and took early leave(:
AND i got an mc yesterday, for today!

secrets not to be revealed as to why i'm break-ing away.
but the best thing?

THAT,
i'm not so sure of.

to spend a wonderful day?
i certainly hope so.

-crosses fingers-

cause i haven't been the happiest girl in a pretty long while.
therefore doses of happiness thy needs.

i'm tired.
both physically AND mentally.
dance is stealing all my time away.
this week is monday tuesday AND wednesday.
next week is monday, tuesday, wednesday AND friday.

SO IMAGINE THAT!

now pat me on the head and pity me.
oh friends friends friends i need that emotional support.

OUT!

9:57:00 AM


Sunday, February 05, 2006

Monday
econs presentation
gp homework

Tuesday
geog test
math tutorial
small lit reading

Wednesday
econs tutorial
geog tutorial

Friday
math class test

due to mr mark soon's absence this whole darn week, :(
i decided to actually make full use of this lonely weekend,
to complete everything.

yes,
i was being very ambitious.

but look,
priorites right.
i've not even studied for geog.
UGH.

all i did was
eat eat eat, sleep, tv, online, EAT!

a round of applause people.
i'm OFF TO BED!


sunday sunday sunday PLEASEE come quick!
:(

miss liu is dying here. :(

i have NO idea why,
but the picture of him (scroll down)
makes me miss him like, DEARLY, way.
creepy.

is it the sorta puppy look????
:(((

10:19:00 PM


apprehensive. :(

7:31:00 PM


you came and changed my whole world now,
i'm somewhere i've never been before.
now i see,
what love means.

it's so unbelievable,
and i don't want to let it go,
something so beautiful,
flowing down like a waterfall.
i feel like you've always been,
forever a part of me.
and it's so unbelievable to finally be in love,
somewhere i'd never thought i'd be.

in my heart,
in my head,
it's so clear now,
hold my hand you've got nothing to fear now,
i was lost and you've rescued me some how.
i'm alive,
i'm in love
you complete me,
and i've never been here before.
now i see,
what love means.

<3

6:54:00 PM























this is plainly out of boredom.
here,
my family.

my sis cum my dad's cake cutting session, 2401.
and all in outrageously ugly clothing.
haha.

12:00:00 PM


Saturday, February 04, 2006

i'm putting on weight.
UGH.

BURN YOU MOFO FATS BURN!!! >l

OKAY.
the la saturday usual.
lightened up my weekend (:

ANYHOWS,
i'm in desperate need of company!
i'm so lonely?
i almost feel like a loner. :(

i shall hop off to bed soon.
getting tired by 11 every night.

CHAO!

11:29:00 PM




















horror of all horrors.

seven solid days of fieldcamp,
which means:

NO contacting in ANY way for SEVEN,
i have to emphasize yet once again,
SEVEN SOLID DAYS!

today's ONLY the FIRST day. one measly day :/
and it's gonna last till friday.
it's a stab in the heart i swear. :'(

AND HE'S GONNA BECOME A BAG OF BONES! :((((

9:54:00 PM


Thursday, February 02, 2006

ohh boy you looking like you like what you see
won't you come over check up on it,
i'm gonna let you work up on it
ladies let them check up on it,
watch it while he check up on it
dip it, pop it, twork it, stop it, check on me tonight

11:16:00 PM


after hitting a record of not blogging for 3 solid days in quite a while,
i'm back and it's already feb!

sure time passes quickly..
especially when you're enjoying it.
need i say more about the return of mark and his blessed 6 day stay
in the sunny islands of singapore? (:

narp!

either way,
i've decided quits with the countdowns.!

and next week is a busy busy week!
so it's partially good that the boy ain't coming back this weekend!
besides, the 6 day stay was dandy,
therefore satisfying,
and good enough to last me till next sunday heh heh (:

and a tinge of reminiscence -
the days of last year <3

the walking with the boy from school and back to bishan.
a sure miss :(

(another miss is to the presense of him in school
AND the lovely morning train rides with him from bishan on!)

:(

what's real sad is that i'll never experience that ever again.
unless maybe on the day he collects his A results. well, hopefully (:
OR UNLESS both of us manage to get into NUS or something ((:
well, not really the same, but close enough.

MY ULTIMATE MOTIVATION TO STUDY HARD !
for the first time in history!

ANYWAY,

the two walking sessions today and yesterday
were well embraced and appreciated. (:
LOVE.! <3

AND tomorrow's gonna be the day of overwhelming humiliation.
but i'll try to bear with it.

i'm lonely and i want some company! roars.

OUT!

9:46:00 PM