Thursday, August 31, 2006
everyone's soo dam fucked up.
11:08:00 PM
wo zhi dao ni de tongshi wo gei de cheng nuoru guo yao zouqing ni ji de woru guo nan guoqing ni wang le wo
8:44:00 PM
you wanna get in my world, get lost in itboy i’m tired of running, lets walk for a minutefellie sang damm well today!:)))uuber proud of her:Dyay yay!i should give chinese songs a go-go:ohaha. rehearsals tomorrow UGH! then more rehearsals among ourselves later on.and i'll be cornie-fied again haha.sooo pun intended.and hey!i think im starting to love math again;) hohoho. righty fellie??:))shall push maclaurine and integration out of our minds for as long as possible or math wont be lovely no more...:(
8:57:00 PM
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http://www.maad.sg/
:) trish asked me to go see.
love the pictures! :)
makes me have this itchy feeling to doodle!~
11:23:00 PM
it's just darkness i'm living in
and you're the only place my heart has ever beenim super tired and there's NO antm WHY?!math test rocked:)and i keep accidentally scratching myself.ugh its horribly painful.and my mind is a little.. unrested.i cant help but ponder why*ive still got homework to do *yawnand tomorrow is-- hardcore lecture sessions!:Dyay yay to it.finally something im able to smile about:)
10:38:00 PM
everything's so undefinedi'm standing on the edge of my fear-- i know our history is something that we can't ignore and worse thing i did was give you wings to fly away
11:53:00 PM
THE "WHAT ARE YOU HIDING?" QUIZ RESULTS You deliberately "go blind" to significant aspects of your experience—maybe your own behavior, maybe someone else's, maybe both. Create a space and time for looking squarely at the truths you may be hiding from yourself. Group therapy or one-on-one counseling could make this easier and more effective.
7:04:00 PM
Martha's Mood MendersShare comforting touch with another living being. Ask for a hug from a loved one. Get a massage, pedicure, or haircut. Pet your cat, stroke the nose of a horse, rub your dog's belly. Physical touch is such a powerful psychological need that infants who don't get enough may actually die.
6:54:00 PM
"Two becoming one was part of my own fantasy," Dr. Robin says. "I didn't realize that meant I was going to end up not existing. We were married for five years, and it ended traumatically because we were too young and didn't know how to repair what was broken."Dr. Robin says it's important to ask your partner questions such as, "What do you think about people coming over uninvited?" and "What makes your heart smile?"—and not just assume you know the answers.Dr. Robin says the key ingredient to successful relationships is truth. "The truth is the light—let it shine," she says. "The truth will set you free, and that joy and balance will come when you live more in truth than in lies."A great marriage is possible if you and your partner are willing to "show up" as grown-ups, Dr. Robin says. "You cannot be evaporated, invisible and think that you are going to create the marriage of your heart and your dreams," Dr. Robin says. "Get out of the fantasy. Let reality live and breathe and you will have a chance—a real chance—at having a great, successful and healthy marriage."
6:19:00 PM
you thought you knew me but you don't you say you'll love me but you wont when you find out who i am i tried so hard to be the one i don't like who i've become--and if you really didn't know i swear i really didn't know so i'm sorry, so sorryrolled round all day at home.catching up on the shows i missed during the weekdayswhich was a must cause antm's tomorrowand oc the day after.and im really tired.work's utterly boring and dreadful and cannot be done during weekends.unless i go back to school.maybeeee i should start doing that.hmmm. i doubt it la.maybe after september holidays perhaps?hmm....dance on monday and wednesdayugh ugh ugh to it-.-and yes im gonna look like a fool on stageso i expect no laughings at me:(boo.
5:55:00 PM
is it any wonder?i cant believe im still awake.to the bed soon.
3:21:00 AM
story of my life
searching for the right
but it keeps avoiding me
sorrow in my soul
cause it seems that wrong
really loves my company
he's more than a man
and this is more than love
the reason that the sky is blue
the clouds are rolling in
because i'm gone again
and to him i just can't be true
and i know that he knows i'm unfaithful
and it kills him inside
to know that i am happy with some other guy
i can see him dying
i don't wanna do this anymore
i don't wanna be the reason why
everytime i walk out the door
i see him die a little more inside
i don't wanna hurt him anymore
i don't wanna take away his life
i don't wanna be a murderer
our love, his trust
i might as well take a gun and put it to his head
get it over with
i don't wanna do this
anymore
1:30:00 AM
150705-270806it all ends here.
12:55:00 AM
Saturday, August 26, 2006
i can't turn to you (now) when it all falls apart--well, i had a real scary nightmare today.it was soo relevant to my life and that made it 100000 times scarier.(the 4 people in the dream involved cher,nicc,andrew and i shant say the last person but yeah)but its sad la:(im really pretty unhappy about everything right now.well i'd say if you think now my life is much better and flowing smoothly,i would say you're very much wrong.and hey.who said you have to totally ignore me?a complicated issuewhich is affecting my mind pretty much up till nowif you're thinking it totally didn't.but it is infact bothering me quite an amount.its quite hard to feel good at allthese days knowing how you feel honestly..it sucks..really...-- you listen to me when i'm depressedit doesn't seem to make you like me lessevery good thing you do feels like you mean itand when i freak you understandlove, jun.
11:08:00 PM
 :) to those days
10:15:00 PM
A woman who begins her menstrual periods at an earlier age has a somewhat higher risk of getting breast cancer than a woman who begins her periods later. The risk is greater because she has a longer exposure to hormone cycles.oh dear:oWomen who have had one or more children have a lower lifetime risk of breast cancer than women who do not have children.For postmenopausal women, excess body weight is directly related to an increased risk for breast cancer.Frequent alcohol consumption is associated with an increase in the risk for breast cancer. The increased risk is quite small for 1-2 drinks per day, and somewhat larger for more than 2 drinks per day.Women who choose a variety of colorful non-starchy vegetables every day develop breast cancer less frequently than the average American woman, who eats fewer than 2 daily servings of colorful vegetables.The amount of vegetables in a woman's diet makes a difference in her risk for breast cancer. Each daily serving of a non-starchy vegetable, such as leafy greens, carrots, or tomatoes, is associated with a 10% reduction in the risk for breast cancer, even after body weight and other risk factors are taken into account.
7:41:00 PM
THE "ARE YOU HAPPY" QUIZ RESULTS
Your total: 41
30 to 49: You're not miserable, true, but your sunny side could use a nudge out of retirement. Think about your strengths (keep thinking) and the activities you love; build more of your life around them. Obvious? Yes—but so is sleeping an extra hour when you're tired: The trick is to do it. 29 or less: You could be getting so much more from your life. Is your language—including the dialogue in your head—destructive? Over time a little lingo substitution (positive for negative) can gradually lift the mood. Is your first impulse to find fault? Try seeking out possibilities instead. (No need to lose the sarcastic edge, but you're much more likely to discover what's good in life if you go looking for it.) Do you know any happy people? If so, what can you learn from them? When something bad happens, do you fall apart? That old cliché about finding strength through adversity is a golden rule for happy people. Finally, are you assuming that money, power, or status will bring you satisfaction—or that everything will be great when someone else changes? If so (and you get points for being honest), try shifting your focus inward and take responsibility for your emotions. Bottom line (and you've probably heard this every third day of your life, but there's a reason for that): Only you can make yourself happy. 50 to 72: Congratulations. Consider yourself a happy person.
6:40:00 PM
we built it up,
to watch it falllike we meant nothing at all.i gave and gave the best of me,but couldn't give you what you need.
5:26:00 PM
ive decided to start dieting again! :[cause im starting to have difficultywith clothing again argh.this stinks worse than smelly socks:((
12:24:00 AM
Saturday, August 12, 2006
:)the sweetest thing--just when i was complaining (just a few hours back!)I MIRACULOUSLY MANAGED
TO CATCH THE FIREWORKS!!!!:D :D-jumps for joypretty pretty they were:))and of course what was 298749070463times better was i managed to catch it with Mr M.!for the first time!:D(yes! its our first time watchingfireworks together!! AND OUR first time seeing fireworks THIS YEAR:)))was having dinner at marina mandrianwith the whole family--and fengyi's boyfriend too, of coursemummy's advanced birthday-dinner celebration:)so when it struck 9 we ran out to catch it!
(although we accidentally left zi and keith there to watch our stuff:x)mark and i went off to find a better spot:)for a better view;)dinner was real long!lasted for about 3 hours believe it hahabut all was good:)and its the first time marksat with my whole family.haha. poor fella.. oh well:)as long as it makes mama happy!:Dour tummies all became mount E*rubs:[
11:47:00 PM
leave me alone, get out of my face-this isn't gonna work--there was the time i thought you were the one
3:48:00 PM
aint no other manbright and sunny moments with jas and aud last night:)they sure put a smile on my face:)and truck loads of laughter too!:D
*does the evalongoria action in jessica simpsons mtv
jas and i just kept laughing over it HAHAshe just looked darn weird i tell you...
________hmm...i just wanna block school outta my mindand cherish the weekend moments as much as i can:))
decided to stay home today to make my mama more happy(her birthdays nearing!)cause i havent pleased her much recently:lguilt trippin`--and did i not mention la is the sweetest?*big fat uuuberr tight hug!after prelims dearr!half a month more!;) AND COUNTING!:Di wanna study!but i aint got the mood and my head feels dizzy:l(at the thought of studying)so....... i think i'll pass.and ive missed all possible fireworks this year.not even once, did i see any:(first time in my life, in any one year, have i not seen a single firework.i guess im just not fated for it boo...even guangzu asked me to accompany him to catch it last night.BUT fate didnt allow me to do so cause i was supposed to meet markie poo! >.<ROAR.now i regret staying homecause im crazy bored and i feel like pulling my hair out.staying home all dayalways gives me headaches!unless im recuperating that is.....TILL LATER!cause i always blog when im bored:D
1:17:00 PM
Thursday, August 10, 2006
i urgently needed a few days off work,but i knew the boss would not allow me to take a leave.i thought that maybe if i acted "CRAZY" then he would tell me to take a few days off.so i hung upside down on the ceiling and made funny noises.my co-worker (who's blonde) asked me what i was doing?i told her that i was pretending to be a light bulb so that the boss would think i was "CRAZY" and give me a few days off.a few minutes later the boss came into the office and asked "What are you doing?"i told him i was a light bulbhe said "You are clearly stressed out. Go home and recuperate for a couple of days"i jumped down and walked out of the office.when my co-worker (the blonde) followed me, the boss asked her"...And where do you think you're going?" (scroll down)she said, "I'm going home too, I can't work in the dark!HAHAHA.okay i stole that from my sis's blog.but its hellva funny!:D
11:29:00 PM
i think im having withdrawal symptomsfrom the idea of having school tomorrow.--everything is f*ed up,straight from the heart.
gotta pick myself upwhere do i start?
cause i can't turn to you when it all falls apart, no
11:11:00 PM
you burst my bubble*:(now im gonna have my ice-cream dosageto cheer me up
10:16:00 PM
poxy fox says:
S TO E N TO E A TO E Z TO E Z TO E Y!!
poxy fox says:
p.s. read 'e' as 'the'jas perks me up:) (yeah. its SNAZZY;))and so did la yesternight:)for these i thank the Lord,Amen*:)
10:02:00 PM
an empty room can be so deafeningthe silence makes you wanna scream; it drives you crazyand so i blast the music andtry to get high--
8:52:00 PM
im having a secret fetish for dresses*and yeah! ching, i need someone to make me smile :[
8:34:00 PM
you're not the person who you used to bethe one i want who wanted meand that's a shame butthere's only so many tears that you can crybefore it changes the life right from your eyeand i can't go on that way-but then again it doesn't end stuck home on thursday. :l did i not mention click is a must watch?
1:19:00 PM
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
How To Be Happier TRICKS OF THE HAPPINESS TRADEBy Lauren Gravitz A study on the mood-lifting effect of flowers showed that 72 percent of seniors who received one or two bouquets over a six-month period were happier than they had beenthats one of the tricks so..ya. now you people know what to do when one's unhappy! :l
11:47:00 PM
many of us have been taught that our support needs to come from a man and this is not truei need a breather.
10:04:00 PM
We all naturally tend to process information, solve problems, and relate to others in a particular way, and such inclinations roughly correspond to four different quadrants of the brain— two on the right, two on the left. These preferences are like mental defaults your brain automatically resorts to when evaluating the world unless otherwise prompted, and most people employ some combination of quadrants.
"A" quadrant (upper left): People who favor this area are analytical, mathematical, logical problem solvers. Drawn to statistics and the workings of machinery, they can overanalyze a situation so much, they have trouble taking action.
"B" quadrant (lower left): These people are controlled, methodical, disciplined, sticklers for structure and routine. Punctual and neat, they always have a plan, timetable, and calendar with appointments penciled in.
"C" quadrant (lower right): Lower-right thinkers are emotional, spiritual, and focused on people and human connection.
"D" quadrant (upper right): "D" types are strongly visual and easily bored, attracted to new ideas, fun, and risk taking.
11:24:00 AM
In one study, subjects who were asked to hold a pen in their mouth (causing them to inadvertently make the facial muscle movements characteristic of a smile) rated cartoons to be funnier than did other subjects, even though they were unaware that it was the smile that was boosting their reaction.
There's an interesting biological reason for this effect: When you feel down, your brain tells your face you're sad and your facial muscles respond by putting on a depressed expression—and convey back to the brain that, yes, you're feeling blue. Consciously changing the facial muscles so they don't correspond to what you're feeling is a way of sending a different message: "Hey, it's not so bad down here after all." The brain will respond by beginning to change your mood accordingly.
11:12:00 AM
Many women get stuck in relationships that aren't great, but aren't bad enough to end. People try to create the perfect picture or "Kodak moments," but it's what happens before and after the camera clicks that really counts.— Dr. Robin Smith
You've got to figure out who you are. You have to be able to know that you are worthy and get your needs met and figure out what your needs are and who you really are because we can't create intimacy—not just sexual, but emotional connection—if we are not being real.— Dr. Robin Smith
11:13:00 PM
4 days 3 nights!when did you increase it to 4?i thought it was 3 and a half! hahaand you made your way to my blog! :ooh well..i have a dam math test tomorrow.have not started as usual.i failed my previous math test too.haha. well done.but wtf.who asks the dam Mr F* to have it on mondays ugh.so much for helping us.its pulling me down more like it ugh.tests right after the weekend always does no one any good.well, at least not for me..its been a.. interesting week for me.and many phone calls too! haha.:) at you! :)dont be unhappy k! SMILE! :)))___________ hmm...oh well...i cant wait for tuesday!*sniggersHOLIDAYS ROCK!i wanna play play play away!!~ :Dthen cover my eyes from them nasty grades :l
10:34:00 PM
i hope all my days will be lit by your face
i hope all the years will hold tight our promises
i don't want to be old and sleep alone
an empty house is not a home
i don't want to be old and feel afraid
and if i need anything at all
i need a place that's hidden in the deep
where lonely angels sing you to your sleep
though all the world is broken
i need a place where i can make my bed
a lover's lap where i can lay my head
cause now the room is spinning
the day's beginning
10:25:00 PM
Thursday, August 03, 2006
say a word or two to brighten my dayshine a light on my lifewarm me up againi seriously hate school.and only soo few can make it better ugh.________________3 tests yesterday,1 being a surprise test furthermore--totally cooked my mental state to a well-done steak.and oops! but ive been recently screwing up all my tests.oh well.. too bad for me i guess ugh.and all the commotion going on right nowisnt the most pleasant situation i swear. :land this is a very busy week! ugh.i have the dam marching thing tomorrow.at FIVE,on a friday.yes, its a major omg situation.and someone tell me again, why, did i agree to?more like i just couldnt reject. ugh whatever.-looks over ching's directionyeah im weak!and yeah! im looking at you.. HAHA :o________________if i couldi'd skip schoolpull some friends along and run far far far away
8:07:00 PM
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