tantalizing sultry      



Saturday, December 31, 2005

we've finally come to the end of 2005.
and i've got a sack of memories,
to remember a lifetime,
here with me.

hmm.

10:28:00 AM


Friday, December 30, 2005

you're the most unfair and self centered person i must add.
this time, it's no longer me.
but you.

so stop thinking that i'm the one who's always wrong okay.
with that f*ing fixed mentality of me you've got up there.

and no,
stop taking my love for granted.
and the fact that i'll take the initiative OR
forgive you by tomorrow.

cause it ain't gonna happen.

think about it.

i can't do this and that.
it's always wrong when i do so.

but when you do it,
suddenly it's okay afterall.

bullshit,
is all i can say.

ugh. f* i am feeling dam bloody f*ed up omg.

plus my neck is making things worse.
it was okay yesterday.
even managed to get through zouk-ing.

so i thought i need not finish my medicine.

f* but the pain is all back.
i think i need another,
yes, ANOTHER jab to kill the pain.

i'm indeed in much pain.
physically and emotionally.

ughhhhh.

good riddens.

2:09:00 AM


True Colors Of Love Report

when you reveal your true colors in love,
you're a Caring Partner

Above all, you're looking for a steadfast, loyal partner who you can trust to stand by you in good times and bad. You typically value the special bond that love can create. As a result, you're more likely to seek out someone who cherishes that deep connection too. Once you've devoted yourself to someone, you're the kind of person who can feel that nothing is too personal to share with your partner. Perhaps you feel that this kind of closeness is necessary for two people to truly relate. When your mate shares your desire to connect, the relationship you create can be both amazing and intense. However, in the past, you may have found that such intensity can be frightening for certain individuals. Don't let this truth stop you from finding the kind of relationship you really want. Keep in mind that there are others out there who will share your desires. The challenge will be not to get too attached to people who don't have this closeness as a relationship priority.

Friendship can be another primary relationship need for caring partners like you. In fact, you may feel strongly that the best relationships are those that are built on a solid foundation of friendship. If this belief holds true for you, you likely prefer a "friends first" approach to dating, rather than jumping in with both feet. If something is going to last, you're apt to feel that there's no need to move too quickly. However, this doesn't imply that you aren't interested in the sexual side of romance. On the contrary, once your relationship matures, you can take as much pleasure satisfying this side of your nature as almost anyone out there.

When it comes to your personal space and grooming, you may be viewed as being more particular than many others are. Aesthetics can be important to you, so you likely make an effort to keep yourself and the things around you in tip-top shape. Striving to keep things attractive and clean can be an admirable trait. However, realize that if you select a sweetheart who is a little on the messy side, your fastidiousness may become a bone of contention.

Still, little issues like cleaning habits aren't likely to put a damper on any relationship of yours. That's because when you are part of a couple, you generally make the effort to be flexible and understanding of personal differences. You also tolerate criticism better than most do. For you, friends' and lovers' constructive criticisms are typically viewed as acts of compassion. These traits can be great for your relationship, as long as you don't allow yourself to be pushed beyond your comfort zone. When difficulties arise, just try to maintain your approachability as well as your sense of self and take things in stride. After all, relationships — even the best ones — will have their moments of dissonance.

Your Outlook On Dating

Whether you're new to the dating scene or a self-proclaimed expert, your perspective about dating will go a long way toward determining your ultimate success in finding the partner who's right for you. Just remember that no matter what your view of dating is today, you always have the power to change it if it isn't bringing you what you desire. Here's what your colors revealed about your present outlook:

When a romance ends, you can be pretty hard on yourself — blaming yourself for problems and even seeing the relationship as a personal failure. Rather than just dusting yourself off and getting back in the saddle as many people do, you typically carry your sadness after a beak-up much longer. While it's important to allow yourself to grieve after a relationship ends, getting stuck in those feelings can inhibit your future happiness. Instead of telling yourself that you'll never find another love like your ex, or that there's no one out there you can trust, take some time to build up your faith and positivity again. Ironically, the best way to attract a compatible mate may be to find strength and happiness in being single.

You may, however, find yourself in a bit of a rut when you venture out to find new people. At first, your love of routine and occasional resistance to change might keep you from reaching outside of your comfort zone. If you want to meet new people, you'll probably need to go new places, get involved in new activities, and seek out creative ways to meet singles. You might even want to try online dating. Trying these unfamiliar, sometimes adventurous, things can be a challenge, but think of the potential reward. Your dream date is not likely to simply drop into your lap one day, as much as you would like them to. Instead, you'll need to open yourself up to new possibilities to get out there and find them.

How You Handle Conflict

Once you find yourself as part of a couple, the way you and your new partner handle disagreements will become crucial to your relationship's long-term success. Realistically, you can't expect to avoid relationship problems entirely, so it's best understand whether or not the way you and your partner argue is compatible. This is something you'll usually be able to determine within the first three months of a relationship, and sometimes even sooner.

In your case, you feel that it's important for both parties to feel heard in an argument. So if your partner yells at you, you're likely to try to calm things down so the two of you can have a more rational discussion. Sometimes, though, you may lose your temper as well and respond by yelling back. Your primary goal in most arguments is to get your partner to understand your position and persuade them to feel the way you do. However, you are also concerned about how your partner is feeling. As a result, you'll ordinarily try to understand their perspectives as well. In relationships, you'd probably do best with a mate who can stand up for themselves and explain how they're feeling when they're upset.

If your partner confronts you when you've done something wrong, you may try to change the subject rather than face the consequences. If that doesn't work, you'll likely make other attempts to displace the tension. You're one to believe that sometimes talking about relationship problems only serves to make them worse. So although you can usually hold your own in an argument, in some cases you'd prefer to "agree to disagree" on issues that seem impossible to resolve.

How You End Your Relationships

The way a person ends their relationships is often a sign of both the maturity one gains through experience and the compassion one has for their romantic partners. Your colors showed that you can be a real pro when it comes to ending romances gracefully. At the close of a relationship, you're much more likely to make the effort to discuss your feelings with your ex, rather than leave them with questions about what went wrong. You're also one who'll typically offer support during this sad time by listening and letting your ex share their feelings with you. By ending romances this way, you ordinarily have the benefit of remain friends later if you choose to.

1:44:00 AM


Thursday, December 29, 2005

i've just done like 9 quizzes?? :o

insanity does hit me.
especially when things get ugly.

rrah.

i'll go get ready -.-
home all day has never worked for me.

toodles~

3:40:00 PM


your handwriting reveals that you are
Trustworthy (:

Your writing style reflects that you're reliable, and it communicates to others that they can depend on you to see things through to the end. Tickle research indicates that people who are trustworthy generally have a few or all of the following characteristics in their writing:
-Clear and legible signature and regular writing
-Faster writing
-Signature placement in the lower left corner

An average or wide bottom margin Your writing tends to be clear and quick because you have nothing you're trying to hide. People can trust that what you're projecting is who you really are. Of all of the personality characteristics that are projected in your writing, trustworthiness is the one that predominates. However, Tickle has also included in this report a comprehensive handwriting analysis, using traditional methods, to give you a deeper view into what a handwriting analyst might say about you based on your writing.

2:51:00 PM


The Ancient Tarot
What's in the cards for your future

you selected the following three cards, in this order,
that represent your past, present and future:


Your Past

Understanding our past decisions and situations can help us derive more from the lessons life is trying to teach us. It's never too late to acknowledge the truths of our past and bring that wisdom into our present and future.

The Fool




78% of people who
are dealt
The Fool in the
first position
say that
it accurately
represents their past.








The Fool exerted a significant impact on your past. This means that at some point in your past, you had the opportunity to make a fresh start in some area of your life. Because you followed your gut instincts without fully thinking things through, as all of us do at some point in our lives, you may have made some rash decisions. Your carefree attitude toward your decisions, and the reactions it elicited from others, brought you to the point you're at today.

The Fool is the first card of the Major Arcana, representing fresh starts and new beginnings. This card shows a carefree young man looking up toward the sky, unaware that he is about to step off a cliff. The Fool is naïveté, optimism and hopefulness. This card is a sign of a clean slate, to use as you see fit, as well as a warning to look before you leap.

This card may have affected the overall tenor of your life, or just a particular area. Following are a few possibilities of how you experienced these influences in your past:
-You may have treated family members thoughtlessly, or been naive in your own life.
-In your social life, you may have trusted others before they earned your trust, or you may have hurt the feelings of others unintentionally because of carelessness.
-You may have rushed into love and romance, without choosing the object of your affection wisely.


Your Present

While we often think we are aware of all that is happening in our lives, sometimes the card we choose regarding the Present provides deeper insight than we are able to tap into on our own. Carefully consider the Tarot's following assessment of your present, and see what the cards are trying to teach you about situations occurring in your life right now.

The Star



Approximately 70%
people who pick
The Star in the second
position say that it
accurately matches w
hat's happening
at the present time.










The Star represents the primary influence on the current state of your life. Right now, in your present, you may be experiencing a moment when your wish will come true. There is a great love, given and received, that is illuminating the meaning of your life. Getting this card in this position may be a sign of great abundance, and enough for all. Beware of stubborn pride leading you to disappointment. Instead, surrender, and receive the fulfillment that comes along with letting go.

The Star represents hope. In this card a woman pours one pitcher of water onto the land, signifying the earth, and another pitcher of water into a pond, symbolizing the imagination and the emotional realm of life. The eight-pointed star above her (which indicates humanity's quest for mastery of the five regular and three extra senses: telepathy, clairvoyance and precognition) inspires her with its spiritual truth. The sacred ibis of the Ancient Egyptians sits in the tree behind her, assuring you of hope and transmitting divine energy intended to help you concentrate on your wishes. This card offers positive reinforcement that you can achieve your goals and aspirations. Your wishes can manifest with the help of her inspiration and faith.

There are a number of ways this card could be playing out right now. Some possibilities include:
-You may be in the midst of a great, reciprocal exchange of romantic love.
-Your financial situation may be in a period of abundance. Perhaps you have more than you need, allowing you to enjoy some leeway in your spending habits.
-In the areas of health and well-being, you may be finally enjoying the period of contentment for which you've been longing.


Your Future

Knowing what may be coming up in our future allows us to prepare ourselves for the unexpected. The card that represents your future will reveal which lessons are coming up next in your life. You may learn that you're about to enter into a particularly fruitful or easy time, or the cards may predict that you're about to be confronted with the opportunity to learn some of life's more challenging lessons. We each have lessons to learn, and if we avoid them, the cards tell us that they will simply reappear until they are addressed. When life lessons come your way, allow the cards' insight to guide your way as you work through these challenges. Keep in mind that if you successfully learn your lessons, you can then move on to new ones.

The Wheel Of Fortune



This card is the
strongest indicator of
what your future
will hold.












Your future, as it currently stands, is represented by the third card you chose. The Wheel of Fortune is the card of chance. At some point soon, you may enter a lucky streak. With this card in your favor, things should go your way and nothing should be able to slow you down. When an opportunity presents itself, remember that the laws of fate are on your side, and take a chance. At the same time, because luck is whimsical and can always turn, make sure to expect the unexpected.

Eleventh in the Major Arcana, The Wheel of Fortune is the card of chance. This wheel is always turning, just as life is always changing. In each corner of the card there is a creature that represents one of the four fixed Zodiac signs: the angel represents Aquarius, the eagle signifies Scorpio, the bull symbolizes Taurus, and the lion signifies Leo. The purpose of these creatures is to remind you that while your daily life is in flux, your spiritual truths are not. Life is about ebb and flow, and this card is a sign of lucky times. When the Wheel of Fortune is with you, nothing can stop you from getting what you want in life. Good fortune—in some area of life—is likely to be yours.

More than any other step of life's journey, this card represents the lessons you must learn and the experiences in store for you in your upcoming karmic destiny. This may impact you in any number of ways, including:
-Good luck in love, bringing you new suitors or a stretch in which everything in your current relationship seems to go right.
-Getting your dream job, or the promotion you've been working for, even if they previously felt just out of reach.
-A happy-go-lucky time in which you and your family have the fates on your side. This could be anything from finding a twenty-dollar bill on the street to finding and being able to afford your dream house.



wanna try? (:
http://web.tickle.com/tests/tarot/tarot.jsp

1:16:00 PM


Wednesday, December 28, 2005




















you can't see the world through a mirror
it won't be too late when the smoke clears
cause i,
i am still here

1:41:00 PM


i love portobello mushrooms,
so much so that i even dreamt of them last night.

humour.

11:06:00 AM


neck pain neck pain neck pain
since yesterday.

it's simply those incidences where by you
sleep,
wake up,
and it's f*ing pain.

but i've never had it so bad.

till the point i couldn't laugh,
yes, laugh,
raise my right hand,
move my head at all to the whole of my right side,
up, down, to the digonals, yes, all that,
and i couldn't run.

and stupid dora was laughing non-stop at me when i was trying to move it to the right.
rrahh. idiot. ANYWAY..... she wasn't the only one -.-

and i had to tilt my head to the left all day?
till the point by 10+pm it got so tiring
that i got a friggin headache from it -.-

when i laugh or run
or do sudden head movements to the right,
it would cause me to clench my neck with both hands
and stop moving at all costs,
cause the pain is at such an unbearable height.

and my mom says it's cause i'm having too little sleep,
and that i'm too heaty.
and sweet mom put a heatbag,
and some burning pain relief cream for me last night (:
lovies.

la told me,
as her dad explained to her,

it's because u're freaking tired.
so when u were sleeping; you twisted it.
but ur body was so tired to even notice.

anyway i just had a 12 hour sleep last night,
with countless number of times i woke up,
cause i wasn't even tired to begin with.

rrah.

looks like zouk could be off,
due to the conditions with my neck.

hmm.

10:40:00 AM


Tuesday, December 27, 2005

your true color is
Blue!

http://web.tickle.com/invite?test=1108&type=t

this is called boredom.

12:28:00 AM


HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY JQ!!!
we'll see you tomorrow ;)

12:00:00 AM


Monday, December 26, 2005

good things never last.

i'm tired.
but i did nothing all day.



lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
and i will try to fix you

oc has been on my mind all day.
i'm itchying for it.
la i need the next disk!

so i think it's bumming around your place again soon! :D

11:47:00 PM


the briefs of the past few days.
(starting from below please)



















251205
CHRISTMAS!
it was drinking with my everdearest, wilin and travin at travin's place.
started only at 330+am.
i was dead tired.
(plus the flu brought over from my birthday was killing me)
and after which, dead drunk.

bad head bad head whole day of christmas.
and spent most of it sleeping away to get rid of the head pain.

but the 24 hours of christmas was all spent with the beloved (:
though i spent a lot of it sleeping :o

and only home 230+pm this afternoon!
3 nights away from home.
i missed my pillow and bolster!






















241205
the birthday cake (:
baileys from the humongous O.

celebrations with the cousins though :l























241205
the surprise by la at my house at 130pm.
(oops. it was ugly sheets day :l )
she waited since around 10am. :x eek.
the most special and sweest birthday surprise in my entire life goes to her (:
she didn't sleep a wink so she could wake up early morning. :o

eighteen balloons for my eighteenth birthday,
and the goldheart earrings are the prettiest. <3
thanks la, you're the sweetest! (:

both of us were soo bushed we fell asleep halfway :o




























241205
the check out and the last picture with the hats (:






















231205
the check into meritus and jollingly away with christmas hats!
dinner with the family
then it was fa la la-ing at indochine with them plus the beloved (:
Qs at MOS were too dam long and jol jas and company decided to go black.
and... i decided to go with indochine instead.

back and 4 and knocked out instantly.
then at 9+am it was hotel breakfast with jq!

(we are such pigs cause food is all we ever think about ha!)


6:23:00 PM


Friday, December 23, 2005

up and real early!
gonna check in to meritus later at 12pm (:
stayover with jiang ree jq dora and trish.

jq and my birthday celebration~~

and it's MOS-ing tonight! (:

jas and i planned to wear matching colors.
and last night,
she told me what color she's gonna wear in some form of...
uhm.....
a riddle?

check this out.

one of e seeds
chewed up a tree
an had a pet bee
that had no knee
an shldnt have been
p.s e secret rhymes with e last word of every line!!::)

haha. like, omg.
the cutest thingg <3

and thanks to you and jol again for last night! :D
<33

hmmm....
the rest are indochine-ing,
to fa la la away,
inclusive of the very one and only miss laura lee.
wanna pop by and see her too ((: woot.

so only question is:
is MOS gonna keep me outside
dark and gloomy clarke quay in the blistering cold till 12am???
while the rest partehh their ass off on the beautiful grounds of MOS? :o

hmm....
a veryy worryingg thought indeed. :S

and i don't think i'll be home for 2 nights!
from now on,
days are gonna be busy busy busy.

rrah.

and.................................................................


please God pleasee.
presents presents, no.
i just want a happy birthday, and a merry christmas.

cause..
i keep thinking i'm gonna have the most f*ed up birthday this year.
arghh.

WHY!
(okay, well, i think i do know why cause...)

you should really hear me ramble*
la had the.. well, "privilege"
of doing the honours in listening to me go on and on and on.........

it's like i'm soo stressed and worried.
it's almost giving me sleepless nights like what,
what-to-get-for-jun's-birthday-present did to laura. :S

karma certainly hits me quick. eek.

and did i forget to mention that the hustle and bustle of town
has resulted in people stepping on my pathetic toes until skin is shed

and the rainy season has caused me to accidentally fall.
not the most glam thing but it was just a blue-black on my right knee.

OKAY!

i hate crowds.
they make me feel claustrophobic.

rahh.

hmm.
hating the 3rd week of december.

especially this year.

rrah.

and worst of all?
yes! bought 6 pressies yesterday (:
(my first round of christmas present shopping, yes, shutup)

BUT!

i still haven't gotten anything for madam laura lee.
it's driving me a bit insane that i started walking round town by myself
last night while waiting for dearest jas and jol
frantically trying to find something for la.

the uncertainty is still hovering up in my
very confused and stressed mind right now in hugeHUGE amounts!

please kill me so i don't have to live through these
2 tormenting excruciatingly agonising days.

rrah.

i'm hungry.
but i don't wanna be puipuii for the 3 nights to come!

but i'll still find something (:

-off to the trusty fridge!


9:09:00 AM


Thursday, December 22, 2005

why, do you always do this to me?
why, couldn't you just see through me?
how come, you act like this
like you just don't care at all

2:37:00 AM


ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.
ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.
ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.
ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.
ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.
ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.
ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.
ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.
ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.
ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.
ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.
ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.
ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.ihateyou.


i think that's clear enough.
(and yes, mind you, i typed every single alphabeth out)




sometimes i don't even know why i even bother to keep trying.


rrah.

shan't blabber on further.

1:13:00 AM


Wednesday, December 21, 2005

junyi's a very very angry girl.

plenty has gone wrong today.
plenty.

and that includes from after 12am yesterday.

for now,
i'm very annoyed cause i missed antm UGH.

kill me.

after talking to jq for soo long,
she only questioned why i wasn't watching antm when there was only 10,
or less than 10 mins of the show left. :l

rrah.

someone slap me.
missed the first episode of the last season of antm as well
cause of obs -.-

okayy.

things JUST seemed to get a little better.
me and fengyi have just announced our skeeming plans
on christmas eve and christmas hehh.

11:29:00 PM























i want my very own king kong too, :(
honestly~

i love him (:

the sweetest thingg. <3

it's the sweetest and sadest show i've watched so far..
the tears just keep flowin babehh.

by the way, wonder if anyone realised his nostrils
are heart-shaped (:

ANYWAY,
a strange encounter i had today.

a 20 year old who jumps off the bus
and wants to take you out to harmless coffee one day.

HMM.

okay.
enough sharing on that part.

i got to finish on one part of my christmas present for someone.
it's taking ages.

and i definately can't finish it by christmas ugh.
it's killing me -.-

rrah.

11:01:00 PM


have you ever loved someone so much,
you'd give an arm for?
not the expression, no, literally give an arm for?
when they know they're your heart
and you know you were their armour
and you will destroy anyone who would try to harm 'em

but what happens when karma, turns right around and bites you?
and everything you stand for, turns on you to spite you?
what happens when you become the main source of a pain?

1:12:00 PM


you're my christmas present
so on this silent night
let me hold you tight
and make you know just how good love can be
there's no gift of hope
and no treasure untold
that's as precious as you are to me.

the stars twinkle on high,
and i wish you merry christmas.

baby you're my christmas present,
my christmas past,
my christmas always.
you're my christmas always.

12:08:00 PM
























i'm hungry and i crave for them dunkin doughnuts.
yes! we bought 10 over back :D

- heads for the fridge(: -

11:24:00 AM


Tuesday, December 20, 2005

the morning awaits me
therefore i have to hit the sack like, NOW.

got to wake up early for the day.

it's early swimming with the beloved at bishan.
and i take time to travel.

okay.
in order to get there by nine,
i have to AT LEAST wake up by seven.
and i take time to get ready.

and my birthday is stressing me out.
time is too little and limited.
and that means...

too little time,
too many people.

i didn't organize a dam party.

so i have to make choices.
but i don't know how to prioritize,
how to squeeze.

rahh.

all that shall be settled SOON.
christmas presents are not even settled.

yes,
not even one.

-bangs my head on the wall-

stress is getting to me.


all i wanna think about is tomorrow.
i can't wait.

so off i go.

'poof'

2:32:00 AM
















pecka pecka owns my new favourite ice cream!
strawberry yogurt.

but they don't have it in singapore :(
boo hoo...


2:23:00 AM




























































i love those pretty furry wings.
I WANT :(

2:22:00 AM



























and the dinner (:
i love portobbello mushrooms (:
my dinner was risotto with wild mushrooms! love love mushrooms (:
and the tiramisu? to die for. <3































dinner at prego
and yes! i do have this thing for chefs :X
























the hotel


1:58:00 AM


Saturday, December 17, 2005

in less than two and a half hours time,
i'm supposed to be up and ready for KL -.-

i'll certainly be thrilled for the usual shopping,
but i'm very much dreadin it as well :(

i misssss already.
bummer.
OKAY.
rah.

till monday will yall then hear of me!
PEACE OUT. :l

2:38:00 AM


















we're both fools when it comes to love (:

1:30:00 AM


Friday, December 16, 2005

i want to share your kisses for christmas
the rest is only tinsel and show

you're all i want, my darling,
at candle glow and mistletoe.

1:46:00 AM























merry five (:
this is love <3

1:21:00 AM


Wednesday, December 14, 2005

mark:
her name's alessandra ambrosio.

1:49:00 PM



















12:09:00 PM


Tuesday, December 13, 2005

where's the jolly in this season?

i don't wanna fall to pieces
i just want to sit and stare at you
i don't want to talk about it
and i don't want a conversation
i just want to cry in front of you
i don't want to talk about it
cause i'm in love with you

so what's to happen now
when even your mom thinks things should stay this way?

i still want it soo bad,
should i try?
or is this the best for the both of us?

tumult.



i would like to think i'm strong,
but my heart can't take this.

10:51:00 AM


i would honestly say?

that i'm superrrr hungry now.
always get such at such hours. :(

food i want
but fat i'm getting.

pounds i've lost,
indeed.

but now the pounds i've lost,
are running back to me like it's the race of a lifetime.

and yes!
my arms are mainly the ones growing bigger.
double iiew to it.
i'll try to diet
but food i simply love.

so jun's gonna sleeeeeeep her hunger awayy (:
like, SOON.
washing up i've gotta do first
-growls

i'm soo hungry the washing up almost can't wait.

okayy!

i'm superr looking forward to breakfast!
:DDD

-chompchomp((:

1:32:00 AM


you take the 'merry' OUT of my christmas.

12:00:00 AM


Monday, December 12, 2005

kaaaaapuiiiii !

i'm clothe-less.

12:44:00 PM


Sunday, December 11, 2005

i think i walked too damm much today.
feeling tired.

well now it's not only physically,
but mentally as well.

i need a rest.
aerobics start tomorrow.
(gotta wake up early)
ugh.

life is bullshit now.
i'm full of bullshit.
rrah.

12:00:00 AM


Saturday, December 10, 2005

stolen from fel heh.


What song are you listening to now?
nothing.

What shirt colour are you wearing now?
white.

Now, who's on your mind?
Mr Mark Soon Keng Hou

Where do you feel like going now?
going somewhere to vent.

What movie do you want to watch?
Pride and Prejudice at the moment

Now, what do you want most?
MSKH

Now, what are you eating and drinking?
nothing.

Current mood right now?
moody.

When is your birthday?
24th december.

Where did you buy your school bag?
blood bros.

Where did you buy your pencil box?
yingzhi stole my pencilbox and dumped me with hers.

How was school today?
it's the hols.

_______________________________
PAST


Last shirt you wore before this shirt?
some maroon tee.

Last thing you held?
my phone.

Last testimonial you got?
from fel.

Last message you got in friendster?
uhm not sure.

Last thing you did?
message mark.

Last issue you read in the newspaper?
i try, but fail, to read the newspapers.

________________________________________
LOVE


Ever regret to love someone.
hmm

Are you in love now? With who?
all i can say is MSKH.

Why?
so many reasons.

Do you have a crush now? Who?
-

Message you would like to say to someone you used to love/in love?
messages go through between us not through blogging.
rrah.


11:44:00 PM


i'm home on a saturday night at 1130pm.

ugh.
i'm very angry.

today ended off badly.
i just so needa vent.


i need a punching bag.

11:39:00 PM


Friday, December 09, 2005

cheers! it's friday! (:

and time for my comfy bed!
the day awaits me (:
nighty night~

1:11:00 AM


Thursday, December 08, 2005

sometimes i imagine the world without you
but most time i'm just so happy that i ever found you
it's a complicated web
that you weave inside my head
so much pleasure with such pain
we always always stay the same

i'm feeling the way you cross my mind
and you save me in the knick of time
i'm riding the highs
i'm digging the lows
cause at least i feel alive
i never faced so many emotional days
but my life is good
i'm feeling you
i'm feeling you

you go and then i can finally breath in
cause baby i know in the end you're never leaving well
we rarely ever sane
i drive you crazy and you do the same
but your fire fills my soul
and it warms me up like no one knows

10:30:00 PM


you will get a sentimental
feeling when you hear
voices singing "let's be jolly, deck the halls with boughs of holly"

rocking around the christmas tree,
have a happy holiday
everyone dancing merrily
in the new old-fashioned way. (:

10:20:00 PM


finally the most dreadful day is almost over!

the rest of the week is filled with
fun
fun
and MORE FUN :D

friday with my baby (:
saturday, la
and sunday, ree.

left no days for my mommy which means NO shopping :/
howells.

tomorrow's saw-ing then who knows what* (:
saturday is non-stop jampacking of oc and rolling around la's place (:
and sunday's early lunch,
so that our food digests in time for our tremendous workout,
THEN it's gym-ing after that and then it's dinner with the rest! :D

woot.
need a good rest tonight for the days ahead ((:

hmmm...

i'm opening a jun fund.
HAHA. jk. arghh....

i'm broke
i'm broke
i'm broke
i'm broke
i'm broke

-.-

9:58:00 PM


i'm flat broke ugh.
(i'm left with eight)

i think it's stay home thursday. :(

1:10:00 AM


outings with la,
i simply love (:

1:08:00 AM


Wednesday, December 07, 2005

all good things come to an end.
hard to deny.

it's soo near.
i can already feel it.






nothing lasts forever though we want it to
the road ahead holds different dreams for me and you

sometimes goodbye, though it hurts in you heart is the only way for destiny
sometimes goodbye, though it hurts is the only way now for you and me
though its the hardest thing to say
i'll miss your love in every way
so say goodbye
but don't you cry
cause true love never dies

each and every end is always written in the stars
if only i could stop the world, i'd make this last



and yes jun,
you're one of the most f*edup living creatures around.
well, all in all when one's lost all,
i'll let fate do the talking.

(and sorry to have dragged you into all this shit with me)

night.

i'm bushed.

2:11:00 AM


Tuesday, December 06, 2005

aud just flew off with serene not too long ago :(
starting to miss them already boo...

cand flew off friday too.

all to lovely japan.

rah.:(

time to start on my pilates.
i think it's about time eh?

well, i must say,
ree and i are really busy people.
haha.

okay,
i demand a lean body! :o

12:27:00 AM


Monday, December 05, 2005

starting to feel sleepy pretty early these days.
wonder why.

anyway gotta get up early for ree tomorrow.
but doubt she can wake up in time.
as usual -.-

cause it's sentosa with (: straight after ((:
(well at least most likely..)
yay yay~
secretly excited.
but poor jun can't afford the sun no more.
i'm looking super mina now :(
and i mean it.
no one,
and i mean no one,
can deny it, boo...

amazing how i managed to turn black during mr monsoon period.

not necessarily a good thing i must add...
(anyway did i not add the sun's a fan of me? -giggles-
everytime when plans are equal to sentosa, the day's scorching hotttt;))

shopping on sunday i did again (:
i love weekends with mom ((:
-sniggers-

gotta shop for my birthday clothes soon woooo
can't wait~
and i have yet to order my most favourite cheesecake (:
yes! it's lil miss baileys from mr bigO ((:
super duper fattening.
but a must! still. (:
(then come 24th i'll cut you up and munch munch much:D)

sucker for tiramisus and cheescakes.
yes i am.
but highER quality ones please ((:
yum yum! :o

a major glut,
trying ever so hard to control her diet.
or rather what goes into her mouth.
i may get full super easily.
but i also constantly put other nonsensical high calorie
and high fat foods into my mouth,
DAILY.
so that's not just bad, but scary :S
(looks down on my ever growing tummy:()

i'm feeling a bit odd todayy.
feeling kinda ranty..
so here i go..
ranting on and on.......

major last minute arrangements due to a forgetful move.
thus home early i was today.
8+ it was for like almost the first time in a long long time.
early enough for dinner! :D
i was starved.
gorged i did cause my mom forced livers down on me.
(yes, they taste soo bad therefore needa lump them down with other dishes)
and yes, i am anemic.
explains my paleness beneath my black skin.
okay. i'm making myself sound indian now :X

ANYWAY,
supermaket again today (:
did a small trip yesterday too hur hur..

tried to stinge so that i won't constantly throw
fats and fats and more fats into the mr humongous trolley :o

and finally managed to rent my stupid saw today.
was supposed to rent it today but change of plans.
(yes, due to the unforgetful move yes bummer)
only caught the first and last part of saw when i watched it.
it was at 2am.
and i was tired. -.-
watched saw2 on saturday.
wrong way round huh ha.
freaking going home at 2 plus am
with all the gory scenes like running through my mind??
haha. (okay, i admit. a f*edup night therefore my mind wasn't on it)
the scene with the girls hands...
till now it can't get out of my mind.
but i think it's darn cool though..
(as in, i think saw's darn nice with a twisted twist (haha )
and a scriptwriter with a warped mentality haha)
but *ehhem* seems to be darnn haunted by it, still.
haha. cuteness.
watching saw with him tomorrow as well heh heh.
squeezing hands session here we come!

exactly one more month till my baby gets enlisted:(
he's gonna get bald and roll around in dark spooky tekong!!
i don't want boo.... :((((

hmmmmmmmmmmm.........
haii..................
and all i can say now is??
i'm majorly pms-ing.
haha.
getting angry and vulgur.
haha.
zip zip :X

11:06:00 PM


Sunday, December 04, 2005

why, do you always do this to me?
why, couldn't you just see through me?
how come, you act like this
like you just don't care at all

do you expect me to believe i was the only one to fall?
i can feel,
i can feel you near me,
even though you're far away
i can feel,
i can feel you baby,
why

it's not supposed to feel this way
i need you,
i need you
more and more each day
it's not supposed to hurt this way
i need you,
i need you,
i need you
tell me, are you and me still together?
tell me, do you think we could last forever?
tell me, why

hey, listen to what we're not saying
let's play, a different game than what we're playing
try, to look at me and really see my heart
do you expect me to believe i'm gonna let us fall apart?
i can feel,
i can feel you near me,
even when you're far away
i can feel,
i can feel you baby,
why

it's not supposed to hurt this way
i need you,
i need you
more and more each day
it's not supposed to hurt this way
i need you,
i need you,
i need you
tell me, are you and me still together?
tell me, do you think we could last forever?
tell me, why

11:59:00 AM


we belong together
and you that i'm right
why do you play with my heart,
why do you play with my mind?
said we'd be forever
said it'd never die
how could you love me
and leave me
and never say good-bye?

11:13:00 AM


can't. stop. ranting.
slap. me.

10:30:00 AM


sometimes you don't just say things,
and play with my mind,
and my heart,
then take it all back.

think back on the past few days of bliss,
pure happiness,
and love.

it was soo sweet,
while it lasted.

what now?
(or is it what then?)
just a pack of lies?
a game?
so... you're Tobin Bell or Jigsaw aka Jon?
i'm confused.

my mind's in a whirl.






tumult.

10:16:00 AM


things are getting wayy absurd.
i'm not obstinate,
and not obdurate mind you.

you can see that,
you know.

so why is it so hard?
why are you making things so dam difficult?

9:31:00 AM


Thursday, December 01, 2005

there is no life apart from God's love.
therefore,
there is no life apart from forgiveness,
for forgiveness is the seal,
the mark,
and the proof of love.
if we say we have love and cannot walk in forgiveness,
we deceive ourselves,
and our "love" is only a parody of the real thing.
(:

11:57:00 AM


my new favourite-
alessandra ambrosio<3

9:26:00 AM


i wanna travel through time
see your surprise
hold you so tight
i’m counting down the days tonight

23 more days THEN, 24 (:

9:10:00 AM


let's deck the halls with holly
sing a silent night
fill a sheet with angel hair
and pretty, pretty lights
go to sleep and wake up
just before daylight
all these things and more, baby
that's what christmas means to me, my love
merry christmas
merry christmas (:

it's the month of december!
finally ((:

okayy.
majorly looking forward to christmas!
and yes,
not forgetting my 18th birthdayy ((:

-prances around-

and to think i've just finished with the 2005 archives.
time really flies.
december is here,
and soon will 2005 be over as well :/

12:28:00 AM